It's tiring Monday again...

Hi all..it had been a tiring week since last monday..my intern partner was taking 2 days' leave and I actually got to share up his assigned work..it's actually good when i get to learn more..but d another way round..i was superb tired..i'm happy if everything i done is appreciated..even if d case i made mistakes..i hope for forgiveness and understanding..i might do some mistakes if my work loads become heavier and when d time more ppl count on me..my pressure level is increasing incrementally, and sometimes drastically!!!Pressure can be good..at least i know my level and what i can perform..with or without guidance..I truly understand how staffs rate self-enrichment at work place for such a high percentage..and at d same time..why they want to be appreciated desperately..even they might not get a satisfying figure of salary..everyone wants to be respected and everyone wish to make things better with their existence and everyone want their existence to be aware..ya..definitely!!!

I'm so happy when i get d chance to work with my existing managers..they are superb understanding and they do pay attention and concern to us..even when i lose control, letting my feelings to explode, and finally tears dropping down silently, i got their consolation and they lead me through d way which i clearly understand these are all the tough circumstances which i hv to go through if i wish to success..big thanks to them and some seniors who really so caring and warm..i love them~~

Fall sick again..hard to recover fully since last month when i actually fall sick seriously..fever+sore throat is killing me..some more when i hv to work and it seems there is never an end for my assignments..scary actually...

Wish i can fully recover by tml morning and all the best for tml's work~~wish everyone out of this screen have a good night sleep~~

If I could relax~~

I am thinking if I can have a good rest, especially when I'm totally not in a good mood, it should be perfect. At least, better than nothing.

It's hard to tolerate everything in life and even I have tried my best, it might not be perfect in other's eyes. And yea, I should not care about that, but when others keep thinking I'm not doing my best and I'm not playing smart enough, I was losing my mind, seriously. Did I tend to be purposely doing all the mistakes? Or did I purposely act like a fool?=[ I'm trying to be d best of me..and I'm sure everyone is doing the same. Just that in the process of learning..I might need even more luck than anyone else would need, cuz i really wish to learn..as fast as possible..as many as possible..and it is always not too possible when I cannot accomplish all these by just myself..I need patience..I need guidance..I need luck.. Best luck to myself~~

Keep cooling down..no big deal..nothing's gonna break me down..

While everything is like such a mess in my daily life..I am stealing some bits of life for myself~~Let's relax~~

Good luck everyone~~

I experiencing little sweetness from them~~

When the moment she said "Is ok, don't worry" and letting her hand to place on my shoulder gently, I feel her warmness and the concern sent by her touched my heart. I will never know how lucky I am to have a such a chance to work with such nice managers when I'm going through my internship program. When the moment I fell sick seriously and when most of the people will choose to stay distance from me, afraid that my sickness is going to affect them, there are these small group of ppl stand by my side to support me telling me i will be ok and i'm not infected. And ya, is them!!!my close friends from my workplace and my managers~~I sincerely thank them and I really appreciate every little concern they try to send to me~~They change my point-of-view and I seriously realize there are kindness and understanding in this such big listed company.

I was so scared when i have to go through the blood test and there are friends stay beside me while there are people who try to stop them saying that they will be infected by my serious sickness. And through this, I get to experience the sincere of the friendship and the another way round how people can think and act when they only care for themselves. This is normal, my dad told me..Nothing to sad about, maybe..

In between of the internship program, I learn much more than what I ought to learn. I would have to say..they change me in some way, it could be just a little, to become a better me. And of this, I accomplished the other part of me and the way how i should see life with heart but not only with eyes~~

Sincerely thanks the managers and the seniors who tend to be patient with me and always being understanding and forgiving. Nothing would worth much than going through such complete learning process of life with you guys~~

Sending my regards here~~Good night~~

~A visit from my dear friend~

My tiring Saturday finally ends here.Doing the same v last week's one-->keyboard lesson + giving tuition.I waited for the bus to go to the student's hs in the afternoon and the Rapid's driver disappointed me by saying the bus will only move in an hour time.ok..no choice..taxi again!..can thay juz follow the schedule will do?they don't really care for public and punctuality will never be in their mind..what the***after 2 hours tuition..i walked along the residential area to get to the bus stop.One motor cyclist made his way to me in a real fast speed i would say..i lost my mind and wondering what he would do to me?snatch my bag?playing fool v me?i nearly ran into one of the houses there where the gate was actually opened at that moment.I was scared.I hate those ppl who has nth to do and they make use of their time by lepak on the road and convict some offence.what is running in their mind..i'm wondering.They hv no moral and totally immature.They get excited when we are being frightened by their scary faces.oh no..can anyone do smth to prevent these..don't think so either..

Finally my keyboard lesson ended this week..asking whether will I go for the test.I have no idea..I couldn't find benefits from it either..or mayb i should just stop everything now and I would get myself started only in next sem..will find a good and qualified tutor for myself i think.><

Was thinking a lot about human's behavior lately..Everyone has their own behavior and we may find it very difficult to match our's to others' one.Even among friends, there are cases like this.Normally, we would think for others' feelings before we actually say smth or we should nt do anything which we know this will hurt other.But how many ppl will actually thinking the same v us?For them, they might have different point of view and they are firm enough v their own standpoint which you don't agree at all.How many of them will care for u?They don't even willing to admit the mistake done by them.For them, all the mistakes may become yours.Think before we speak, think before we act.We would never want to hurt anyone whom we care a lot.

A friend of mine visiting me today and I was surprised by her visit.Miss her a lot and she reminds me of a lot memories that we had before.It's hard to get someone being so understanding and she keeps our promise for friendship.I'm wishing her d best for her future life and may she stay happily always v her loved one.I'm really thankful for those friends who stay v me since my childhood and and I would really want to keep them v me forever.A big thanks to all my friends giving me so much love and support!!!

Good night for everyone~~