~I Learn to Appreciate Each Tiny Satisfaction in Life~

~There might be still LOVE exist inside us even things changed~

I were once feeling so upset about all those misfortune which tend to appear in my life..found no way out and i keep on asking myself~'why should i live my life in such a way?such a way that i really hate about..'when everything turned to be so meaningless..i blamed everything and anything~~i should have lived a happy and relaxing life..enjoying while studying..no stress no pain..do things which I really wish to do..go places where i really wish to go..spend time with all those i love about..that's how the definition of life is fulfilled..rite?~~

At d moment I keep on grumbling..I never know i actually ignored d sorrow which suffered by someone who stay by my side and stand for me whenever i need him..i do not realize that he never complain and he never show how it felt when he was so stressful when facing hardship..d situation became even torturing when i failed to appreciate things in life and keep on complaining..when i was speaking through hp v friends telling them how miserable was my life here..i never realize d dinner was well-cooked and served just right on my table..when d moment i was watching drama while eating..all those fish and chicken had become boneless and was placed on top of d rice..ya..sometimes i use to ignore a lot of things..and some of the things may be so meaningful by itself..i never get myself to appreciate it and that was my fault..

Learn to appreciate each tiny satisfaction in life would probably become some kinda knowledge in life..looks like just s basic concept in life but sadly most of d time..we failed..Maybe..things just don't get right when we ourselves refuse it to become a right one..does this make sense?it could be..i totally don't enjoy my lifestyle over here..and this could because of i refused to accept it from d very beginning..

Life seems to become even harder each day i proceed..I desire for a better life in future and that's why I pay for it..there's always hope in life..i guess so..and if there is..''can i have my every tomorrow to be as beautiful as the smile in my heart..?''

Somewhere for me to lean on...??

Finally I realized..there's moment when we feel so bad until we find no way out except letting tears dry out..and on that moment..I don't need any reason..and with whatever reason also..on that point of time..crying would probably be d best solution to letting go of my pain..we use to have so many reasons to prove ourselves we are living happily but normally we find no reason why we are unhappy...finally getting tired of everything..i really got to admit this huh??

Walking along the pathway..the so called 'interesting and challenging' lifestyle finally drive me crazy..watching ppl all around are busy to strive for their living goal..they are approaching their success with full effort but why am i standing so far away and i even couldn't find a place to accommodate me...yup..i should not surrender for every reason..i should work harder and even harder..braver and even braver..!!!i promised myself would never let my tears dropping down again..crying would eventually make me weaker and pessimistic. I know..but where should I find my strength from??

~Life meant for...?~

hArlo..finally coming back for blogging again..hm..normally i don't really have mood or intention to blog when i am happy with everything around unless there is special moment which i really wish to share..however when things go another way round..i can't find a better place for me to tell everything except blogging..reason why..firstly..everyone whom you trusted a lot would not be always available to lend you their ears..secondly..would you actually trust someone so easily..?even for the case of close friends..you might not know how to speak out sometimes..especially when everything happened to you seemed so unfair that you couldn't find excuse to console yourself anymore..life turns to be so meaningless at that of time!!!have you guys actually experienced this b4??..and ya..i did..

when the moment you try to do ur best..try so hard to survive from the world of gossip and scandal..let's find urself one second and think..do all of these worth you to sacrifice??life should not be so tiring and miserable..rite??sometimes i was thinking..'what do i actually lived for?'..for myself?for my loved one?or for somebody who need me?..and most of d time..we don even get d chance to choose..is life meant to compromise?endure v every sorrow in life without having second word?is life meant to a lie?how frequently do we actually tell the truth from our heart??even to those who are so close to us..and we found out that..most of the truth sound bad..we prefer to lie because it looks good in some way??this could make sense i thought..

Life does not goes in such way you want it to be..we have no power to control but to live on..'Don't aim too much to design ur life with what you think of..but change the bad part of life to a better one'..is that so??..when everything went upside down in ur life..there's no other way out except for that..rite??i guess what we can do is always stay optimistic..never surrender to failure in life..but to be braver and braver each time you fail and stand up for second chance~~

~Happy Birthday to My Beloved Father~

Happy Bday to my dear daddy..what can i say here..i feel really sry for not going back to celebrate v him and stay by his side for his remarkable moment..so sorry daddy~~

To talk about my dad..he is someone who himself never cares about'' when is his bday''..or even ''who will remember for him''..he never celebrates bday until the very first time when i insisted to had a bday party for him..yup..tis is my father..a man who is really cool and 'low-key'..i never know whether he really don't care..or he just trying to hide all these from us..but then i strongly believe he would be happy if we did something for him to show how mush we do love him~~

Daddy..u r d one i really admire at..u r d one i would always respect to..and u r d one whom i keep everything of him in my heart~~i do love u very much daddy..u take really good care of everything about me since i was born and maybe u not even notice this..i would never gonna forget how u care me and do everything to protect me..never punish me although i did break ur heart for so many times..not going to forget how nervous u r when i actually started a relationship v a guy whom u hv totally no idea with..thank you so much for everything dear daddy..^^

Once again..happy bday and may everything of you being blessed~~we love you daddy!!!

~a new beginning of semester~

I will be even brave..i promise~~

my 3 little brothers

v my mom

v bf at genting

cameron highland

Finally coming bc from hometown..goin to hv a new beginning of college life~~i'm goin to start my 2nd sem of adv diploma very very soon..was a little bit resistent..most probably is because i still DROWN in my previous life~~seriously i hv to admit that i miss penang's lifestyle a lot..and this actually cause myself hardly tolerate v kl's life..anyhow..it has been one semester over..i guess i should adapt v everything here even better..we should have learnt and grow from things happened around though..although memories in pg is still so fresh in my mind..keep playing just like a recorder at d same time keep reminds me about loads of thing~~

Went for 4-day-trip v family and my bf too..i am very grateful to spend more time v everyone in my family as i hardly find time to accompany them since i came here..although d places we visited were not really interesting for me..but still..it is enough for me when my dad smiled to us signified his happiness..i always know he wish to spend every single moment v us~~i love u..as for my mom..thx a lot for being so caring..i know u are tired running d business and most of the time u are the one handling those disturbance..so sry i always fail to help up..thx mom~~

Today is supposed to be our chinese 'moon cake festival'..and i sitting in front of my lap top..blogging and at d same moment..miss my family a lot~~may everyone of you be loved..For everyone of you out there..may all of u have a beautiful tomorrow and of course enjoy tonight~~thx for reading..nitez^^