kexin...tired life...

very tired lately...my CS meeting really make me exhausted...haiz...aiks...dono y sumtimes feel very confuse...lonely...dono who should i talk 2...or i should say...sumtimes ppl mayb dont agree v wat we tin...n our action oso...i m nt going 2 control everyone...i m nt going 2 tel everyone 2 follow wat kexin do n wat kexin say...4 kexin...everything is juz so simple...everything is juz so wateva...but wat should i say leh...sum ppl juz tin tat i should nt b so simple or mayb wat they say-innocent...ya...they r right...i m nt mature enough...i m juz a child...i m nt going 2 hide myself...about personality or feelings towards many things...i m juz a simple gal...mayb u can say stupid...but 4 me...everything wil b perfect n nt 'mahuan' if u tin positively n b a bit stupid...i m nt saying tat i refuse 2 grow up...or refuse 2 tin about pro...but if we r happy v wat we hv n wat we want...y should we change...i m juz practise out wat my heart tells me...i m juz showing d real kexin...i m kexin...n i m myself...no ppl can ever tell me 2 change fr kexin 2 another person...i juz want 2 b myself...d very real kexin... i hv my own opinion...i hv my own feelings...n i hv my right 2 mk decision 4 myself oso...i noe...sumtimes...they juz care 4 us...tat's y they wil say smth hurt or doing smth tat we even cant imagine...but juz let me tell u all...i luv u al...lk u al luv me...but mayb juz provide sum space 4 my own thoughts oso...k???don force me 2 grow up...it wil cum naturally...don try destroy kexin which u al hv nw...let me b simple...let me b stupid...let me b happy...let me b easy-going...let me b myself...as i say...i luv u al...n i luv myself too...thx u al ya...