Another depressed one~~

Was reading through friend's blog..get to know that she was very sad about d leaving of one of d friends among their group..not going to further studies anymore v them..seeing d blog i was like having same feelings and i'm like experiencing d same thoughts v her..we got to choose when d time we actually completed our diploma level in penang..whether u further up to d advanced level in kl, going to utar, or to any other institution..and that's how our sad story begin@@..of course everyone would have different thoughts on where they should further their studies..and it's like making a serious decision which means we actually having superb high percentage to regret on d later time if we just got to choose d wrong one..and perhaps every choices leads to an dead end..

Was crying a lot of times since i came here..even my bf going to force me to stop my studies here and send me bc to hometown..perhaps i will go insane if i were to keep on..worries and tension finally break me down..i would not surrender..i thought..but so what..i was crying on d phone conversation v mom..yearn for d very warm 'home sweet home'..i never been so fragile b4 and this could surprise her i thought..she wanted me to go bc as i would juz gain nothing if i were to live on such unhappy life..miss penang cuz we used to be so simple and innocent over everything..we could enjoy anything together not even v a little bit of discrimination..i miss my hometown badly as i feel free to b there..and there are some friends who accompanied me since my childhood..they could share my happiness and even sorrows..i juz so miss all of them~meelin~who is d one having longest friendship v me..cares me whenever i need..show her appreciation towards our friendship and i really wish to hug her right now!!!and not to forget a lot more~jye gin n mui hui..miss u both so much..all of u craved a lot of memories for me~~big big applause to u al!!!

Not going to complain anymore..that's how i comfort myself each time i fall..there is still beautiful part of life which i get it from here..yup..there is!!!i still have friends v me..we form our group in class although nt much of us but they had been accompany me to go through many things..thx to u al~~ i have my buddy~hoay shuang here too..giving me support all d time..appreciate it lotz~~and of course my friendly hs mate..enjoy staying v them..

Life is not as ugly as what i tin..rite?..but why i use to hate it..!!!i was getting tired and tired..weaker and weaker..tis place doesn't look right for..something must have gone wrong..perhaps d way how ppl behave here..they just can't get me right..or maybe the hectic lifestyle over here which drive me crazy..many many more reasons to actually convince me--this is not d place where i should belong..!!!