Can I take a break?

Was totally exhausted since I came bc fr Redang trip and went bc to college life..Let's see..I was never setting down for weeks I think..This was killing me I thought and I finally have to admit I isn't super woman though I think I should have gone a little bit farer~feel disappointed with that actually..Hmm..honestly speaking..I have a lot of plan in mind..I have a lot of so called ambitious..I have too much to dream on..I have too much to achieve..and most of the time, I don't even realize..I may not have enough strength..how sad is it huh?Tell myself I have to be really persevere and God knows how much I sacrifice for things that I have been desperately wish for such long time..and I do really think that everything I pay for it worth much more than that!!I just need more time..more patience..more strength..more courage..and I guess everything would be fine!!!Still strive for that..though is really tiring~~

My current daily life is always full with job interviews,working,attend class and probably handling some household stuff..and I'm surprised that time lapsed much more faster than I could ever imagine and I finally found that things never go according to my original plan~travelling here and there and I really have to cope v a lot of problems with just myself...

I'm always thinking of should I make myself so miserably tired and busy?ended up realizing that I am not given a choice most of the time~I have to be speedy in order to be on track..need money to pay for my swimming lesson,piano lesson,yoga and bla bla bla..feel not so good to ask from parents again..think I should figure out some of my living expenses myself..aiks!!but is such a burden for a student rite??I have to be strong~~

Sometimes I was thinking how good it would be if i have just some time for me to take a nap or just to do nothing..no rushing time..and it is totally relax~~Has been long time ago since I lost this kind of feelings..Wish I can lie down on the beach now..enjoying the lapping of water and the beauty of seaview..I would probably fall asleep easily over there~Miss the beach of Redang badly~~

~Back from Internship-->Beginning of college life~

Finally ended my 2 and a half month internship programme!~I was always thinking of how good would it be if I can go back to college immediately since d first week I started my internship..But when it had come to the time when I really have to say good bye..I feel so hard to do so..Missed them a lot..and thanks to all the managers and seniors who have taught me a lot..Thanks!!~Failed to control myself on the day when I left the company..my tears couldn't stop dropping down when they hugged me and leave me some kind advice..Things never wonderful isn't it?Perhaps I will become a better me only if I go through all these..Do take care ya all of my colleagues..will miss u al!!!

Starting point of a new semester~should pursue better result and I might as well complete all my wishes which I have made long time ago~not going to delay anything anymore~I must achieve what I want myself to achieve!!!~

Gambateh for everyone~

~Ramblings~

It's finally come to thursday's night..and again friday's coming..if I said it has been a tiring week..probably ppl wil reverting me in this way:"what you expect from working life?everyone is experiencing the same thing..and is meaningless when you keep complaining..so don't crab anymore''aiks~~what to do..when you tell me there's always choices in life..and I would tell you there's always obstacle to choices in life..and your turn telling me ''this is life''..omg!!!~~

Never thought i will work off my anger on a waitress today in a mamak stall..not having good mood when everything comes in one shot and was like:''can everything just leave me alone?''i don't like when i'm feeling really uncomfortable with smth and d worst thing is I would still have to keep quiet because complaining is never a smart choice..so..when i ordered food in the stall and thinking that i would at least get some rest..the waitress give such big disappointment by bringing the wrongly ordered food..she pissed me off when she tried to protect herself by saying i'm d one who ordered wrongly..ok..no chance for her and I start ''scolding''..i don't really express my feeling especially anger, what i would do normally is just trying to keep quiet..and she was bad luck when i couldn't take this anymore..should not be in this way so i really hope everybody will think for others cuz you will never know you cause the anger while others are trying to keep it down~~

My bf is currently facing difficulty in his company..he was assigned a task which he has no idea what is that about and the worst thing is even other staffs including the boss himself has no idea either..d boss is trying to get someone to investigate everything for him while he is d one who enjoys the results..okay..boss should have such power but pls be reminded that when you yourself know nth and you should have no power to demand how well the result which your employees can give you..yup!!you have no power even you are d boss!!i'm taking up the task to assist you but pls be aware that even i'm your employees,I should at least get some respect and kind concern from you..you pay me for the jobs done and i wil try my best too..if you were to complain and criticize other's performance but at the same time you are not a good modal..you are not smart at all..never judge ppl's hardwork because you would never know how much effort they put in for you..and you would finally lose them because you never learn to appreciate...what is so proud of when your employees choose to leave some bad comments for you and switch to other company..

Stand up for those ppl who have to endure with uncomfortable working environment and unfriendly employer or colleagues..you have nth to blame on yourself..what you can do is strive for the better one..everyone is not born to be a loser..and you should be respected..i'm happy and I feel lucky I got friendly seniors and managers..for those who don't have..you shall believe one day you could change the situation...