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I have been superb tired lately..since my last update..i mentioned that i m currently going for internship program..basically i work 5 days a week..left my pleasure weekend..i stil hv to rush for keyboard lesson and teaching tuition as well..why i hv to make myself so busy and tension?..i am wondering actually..i'm nt given a chance to choose?there's no better choice?mayb..since i started first level for keyboard lesson..i'm thinking that it is wasted is i were to give up half way when i haven't actually get myself to learn through it..but did i make a good decision?do i gain something enough during the class?i hv no idea..:(..not born to be a musician?i would rather admit this?..hardly got the time for myself when i stil have to handle tuition for one student..but i'm really excited when i got my pay for all the sacrifice..doin my best to earn much even though i'm stil not doin good actually..feel ashamed when i stil tend to ask money from parents since i got a job..(although d job i have now need more investment on my side and i don't really get much return)..gonna save money?oh no..don't think i will..having damn boring weekend..not feeling good though:(

~A brand new update~

Such a hiatus since d last time i updated my blog..i guess i was busy enough recently..everytime when i actually get myself to sit in front of my laptop thinking of blogging..some kinda feel running in my mind just like i will never noe when should i start my story and most of d time i use to hv to much to talk about..that's the thing!!..so..give up and go to bed..aiks

Finally started my internship programme at Symphony Corporatehouse.I was told that i am d lucky one to enter into tis company to learn smth about the real corporate world since it is among d 'BIG FOUR' company in Malaysia and i guess i will see smth which others don't see?mayb..I try my best to complete my task and assignment given by each manager and senior and i noe d reality very well which is since i'm nt coming here for money,den at least i must get smth bc in my way..which is experience. I noe i must get myself to learn and i must put in effort by myself..not that everyone will teach or guide you if u keep quiet as if u noe everything..I could be dub and i would not care if u noe i isn't smart enough..d important thing is after all..i should get myself to be real smart~~

One more thing weighing my mind..feel like give up on my keyboard lesson..i noe it's totally wasted since i have started half way..but just that i couldn't get myself to learn properly or to enjoy it..friends telling me mayb i need a good teacher?to understand me well and guide me according to what i could adsorb..ya..mayb..i try to practice even i hv limited time..i guess i noe d theory well,juz that when come to application,i might not be that good.I try not to say 'what an idiot' to myself..i still can be d best even i may lose in some way..but still..i am stress out!!!

Wishing myself could have good working day each morning when i step into my department..i can satisfy each of you guys if i am given chances..ya~~no fool!!!as usual..i wish everyone outside this screen would have a beautiful days alwez..i appreciate much when you guys sitting down to get updated v my blog~~good night!!~~