Tuesday, August 10, 2010

心...碎...

心渐渐劳累, 很明白, 再也回不了过去;
以往的回忆越来越清晰, 才知道, 其实更折磨.
很想说, 其实我在意, 其实我难过,
事过境迁, 还是人心改变?
很感动一直拥有这样要好的朋友, 我心存感激.
偏偏, 大家都身在困境, 实在不想有谁受伤.
误会可以杀人, 能剥夺一切.
心里对对方的关怀, 还有谁说得出口?
彼此建立的友谊, 是时间培养出来, 一点一滴, 都很珍贵;
可惜, 摧毁时, 却没有半点犹豫.
遗下的, 是心碎, 是遗憾.
很想问, 为什么事情就不能好好解决? 为什么非得弄僵局面?
是否双方都有一定的责任?
牵强, 是辛苦的.
回想当初是如何相识, 如何变得要好;
回想一起欢笑, 说自己尴尬的事;
回过头来, 才知道, 我再也改变不了什么.
后悔为何开始这场误会, 如果早知如此, 我们都不会做这样的决定.
如果从此形同陌路, 心有不舍, 但我又能做些什么?
学习到怎么不掉眼泪, 即使难过, 相信总会过去;
明白自己也会冲动, 但请谅解, 我也会心疼.
事情发生了, 就再也弥补不了什么,
只希望, 一切都会过去, 然后又回到原点.
而我, 仍然珍惜, 这个好朋友.



Thursday, July 8, 2010

Life Keeps on Moving~

Sometimes I was doubted by myself, seriously. There's always a determinant inside my heart, my mind and even my soul that would every moment eagerly wanted me to perform well, in almost every part of my life. I hate to regret, if I supposed to get something in my hand, then I should have got it. I try to do my best in my studies, try to score in every test and exam, I know I don't deserve a chance to retry for failure. Time is always being limited, not left much for me if I wish to achieve all d dreams in my life. I almost cried when I found out that there's a big mistake in my answer sheet for my taxation test. I blamed myself, I should not do such a stupid mistake since I have gone through this again and again. And I finally realize ''is not a real good thing if you are so clear or expert about something'' you will get yourself wrong because you always perceive that you will always get it right! and the cruel truth is that ''you have to accept and admit that you have done some mistake which you yourself think that it will never happen on u''..overvalue myself?yup!perhaps...

There's always kind-hearted ppl around , telling me that failure is never a big deal, we can fight towards it!yup~i used to be so positive-thinking a while ago, but finally come out v my own conclusion which is ''we do not have so much time to fail and to wake up and to retry'' Life is just like a war, try hard you will survive. I have always remind myself, ''ppl are evaluating me, all d time'' to spot my mistake and to replace me v someone else. I learned this from job. We have to be alert all d time when those spy are actually around to bring you into d troubles. And finally I make myself think this way ''All is on our own''.

To make myself a better person, failure may help a lot. I have to learn from it, and I have to be always quick to recover..There's too much challenges awaiting right in front of me~And I know I have to be always Be Ready!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010

Can I take a break?


Was totally exhausted since I came bc fr Redang trip and went bc to college life..Let's see..I was never setting down for weeks I think..This was killing me I thought and I finally have to admit I isn't super woman though I think I should have gone a little bit farer~feel disappointed with that actually..Hmm..honestly speaking..I have a lot of plan in mind..I have a lot of so called ambitious..I have too much to dream on..I have too much to achieve..and most of the time, I don't even realize..I may not have enough strength..how sad is it huh?Tell myself I have to be really persevere and God knows how much I sacrifice for things that I have been desperately wish for such long time..and I do really think that everything I pay for it worth much more than that!!I just need more time..more patience..more strength..more courage..and I guess everything would be fine!!!Still strive for that..though is really tiring~~

My current daily life is always full with job interviews,working,attend class and probably handling some household stuff..and I'm surprised that time lapsed much more faster than I could ever imagine and I finally found that things never go according to my original plan~travelling here and there and I really have to cope v a lot of problems with just myself...

I'm always thinking of should I make myself so miserably tired and busy?ended up realizing that I am not given a choice most of the time~I have to be speedy in order to be on track..need money to pay for my swimming lesson,piano lesson,yoga and bla bla bla..feel not so good to ask from parents again..think I should figure out some of my living expenses myself..aiks!!but is such a burden for a student rite??I have to be strong~~

Sometimes I was thinking how good it would be if i have just some time for me to take a nap or just to do nothing..no rushing time..and it is totally relax~~Has been long time ago since I lost this kind of feelings..Wish I can lie down on the beach now..enjoying the lapping of water and the beauty of seaview..I would probably fall asleep easily over there~Miss the beach of Redang badly~~

Friday, May 21, 2010

~Back from Internship-->Beginning of college life~

Finally ended my 2 and a half month internship programme!~I was always thinking of how good would it be if I can go back to college immediately since d first week I started my internship..But when it had come to the time when I really have to say good bye..I feel so hard to do so..Missed them a lot..and thanks to all the managers and seniors who have taught me a lot..Thanks!!~Failed to control myself on the day when I left the company..my tears couldn't stop dropping down when they hugged me and leave me some kind advice..Things never wonderful isn't it?Perhaps I will become a better me only if I go through all these..Do take care ya all of my colleagues..will miss u al!!!

Starting point of a new semester~should pursue better result and I might as well complete all my wishes which I have made long time ago~not going to delay anything anymore~I must achieve what I want myself to achieve!!!~

Gambateh for everyone~