~A brand new update~

Such a hiatus since d last time i updated my blog..i guess i was busy enough recently..everytime when i actually get myself to sit in front of my laptop thinking of blogging..some kinda feel running in my mind just like i will never noe when should i start my story and most of d time i use to hv to much to talk about..that's the thing!!..so..give up and go to bed..aiks

Finally started my internship programme at Symphony Corporatehouse.I was told that i am d lucky one to enter into tis company to learn smth about the real corporate world since it is among d 'BIG FOUR' company in Malaysia and i guess i will see smth which others don't see?mayb..I try my best to complete my task and assignment given by each manager and senior and i noe d reality very well which is since i'm nt coming here for money,den at least i must get smth bc in my way..which is experience. I noe i must get myself to learn and i must put in effort by myself..not that everyone will teach or guide you if u keep quiet as if u noe everything..I could be dub and i would not care if u noe i isn't smart enough..d important thing is after all..i should get myself to be real smart~~

One more thing weighing my mind..feel like give up on my keyboard lesson..i noe it's totally wasted since i have started half way..but just that i couldn't get myself to learn properly or to enjoy it..friends telling me mayb i need a good teacher?to understand me well and guide me according to what i could adsorb..ya..mayb..i try to practice even i hv limited time..i guess i noe d theory well,juz that when come to application,i might not be that good.I try not to say 'what an idiot' to myself..i still can be d best even i may lose in some way..but still..i am stress out!!!

Wishing myself could have good working day each morning when i step into my department..i can satisfy each of you guys if i am given chances..ya~~no fool!!!as usual..i wish everyone outside this screen would have a beautiful days alwez..i appreciate much when you guys sitting down to get updated v my blog~~good night!!~~

Stealing time for me to rest here~~

sort of 'compensation' as i spend alot to buy their products~~diary 2010..but i love it^^

this is d mask pack~~they are nice 2 use~~

specially love this 'salmon brightening eye serum'.can't believe salmon is used as ingredient

Finally got my time o do some ramblings here..and today eventually i cleared up my taxation test which i actually spent a plenty of time cracking my head to prepare for it..damn tiring and torturing..i hate so much when d more i studied, d more confusion i gain from that..a lot of rulings, sections, exemptions, court orders..bla bla bla..okokok, why do we have to know so much on this..oh ya..to pass for d paper? to become a superb tax agent in future? no no no..is to prevent ourselves being cheated in future..or is to find more ways to cheat in future? get so excited when i got my answers right when doing d computation for various type of income..this become some tiny satisfaction for me so that i still think that d effort i put in at least is proven in some ways...

Recently, i am spending a lot on my skin care products..i do rely on skin food very much ever since i first started tried on its basic skin care products such as toner, essence, emulsion and etc..they give rather good effect i think..and the very initial reason for me to try on it is actually skin's food products are made up from vary natural ingredients such as fruits and veges, even the cleanser's ingredient is actually cuppuchino..amazing rite?it does not cause danger to our skin since our skin is actually d most sensitive part of our body..not like d previous product i used to buy..it contains a lot of chemical ingredients inside..although my skin is not directly affected from using it but i was afraid that it might happen on a later day..

I actually has very little knowledge about mask sheet for what i tin of..since different ppl sound their opinion in totally different way..i guess i should really do some serious+careful research on it..some of them said that d mask sheet actually contains alcohol which is bad to our skin although it gives us cooling effect..is that so?while some others told that doin mask is a very important step for gals to keep their skin nice as mask sheet provide easier absorption of vitamins needed for our skin..dono a~~

Putting great effort to fulfill my life recently..although at times things get harder and tougher..but this is life seems to be..d more u strive for it..the more u could gain from that..i deeply agree on that though~~At times..i try to be myself, the real me.however, for some of d times, thing does not work like tat..not everyone of us deserved to own 100% freedom where you can tell what you want, see only d pleasure part of thing, respond only when you feel good, gets angry whenever things around get wrong..but believe me..things do not go tis way..most of d times..we got to accommodate and endure every little unpleasure thing of life..that's how we get ourselves to learn..not everyone will think for u..not everyone will care for u..and such is life..Gosh...

I love ppl who loves me..i care ppl who cares me..things become better when both parties stand for each other without second thought~~wonderful rite??however even though u r standing alone..don't cry but think y u should cry for it? u r still d best even it's just u alone..friends are wonderful when u scare to b alone..try to find one but even if u fail to..stand by urself is nt something too bad..things get really bad only when you yourself don't standby urself...

I wish everyone could have better day everyday when u guys wake up in d morning~~

~Get Back On Track~

Few days i actually didn't turn up here for blogging..and the moment when i bring myself back here..i guess i would say--I'm recovering..and i'm currently on my way heading to a better situation..a better tomorrow..it's hard to let go something hurt and bad..but what for if you keep holding it?...if you force yourself to be happy..and you know the fact is 'YOU ARE NOT'!!!..never try to tell myself to be happy again..because from things happened to me..i got myself to learn..it is stupid to force ourselves keep smiling but at behind we are actually carrying a real heavy + hectic heart inside us..the beating of pulse don't even indicate we are still alive at that moment though~~

Getting better to face things around now..if I were to say i finally get myself to adapt..am i right?ya..perhaps..and i really hope things will keep on improving as it will enlighten my hope for life at least..i think i know myself pretty well and i know i'm not going to live by myself..reason why is because i m not that strong!!!i need friends and friends will really change my perspective towards a lot of things and perhaps..in some way..they are leading me to become a better me~~good friends can play a real important role in life and i actually agree about this very much..i don't stand by myself but i realize at certain stage of process in life..we got to experience a lot by just ourselves..we feel alone..we need each other..can we make things different?

Get myself involve in a a number of lessons lately..i wish to fulfill my life v meaningful things..i wish to stop myself from thinking noncense v al those unallocated free time..i wish i can learn in every process and hopefully this will make up a better me~~

Let's all of us cheer for life~~

Another depressed one~~

Was reading through friend's blog..get to know that she was very sad about d leaving of one of d friends among their group..not going to further studies anymore v them..seeing d blog i was like having same feelings and i'm like experiencing d same thoughts v her..we got to choose when d time we actually completed our diploma level in penang..whether u further up to d advanced level in kl, going to utar, or to any other institution..and that's how our sad story begin@@..of course everyone would have different thoughts on where they should further their studies..and it's like making a serious decision which means we actually having superb high percentage to regret on d later time if we just got to choose d wrong one..and perhaps every choices leads to an dead end..

Was crying a lot of times since i came here..even my bf going to force me to stop my studies here and send me bc to hometown..perhaps i will go insane if i were to keep on..worries and tension finally break me down..i would not surrender..i thought..but so what..i was crying on d phone conversation v mom..yearn for d very warm 'home sweet home'..i never been so fragile b4 and this could surprise her i thought..she wanted me to go bc as i would juz gain nothing if i were to live on such unhappy life..miss penang cuz we used to be so simple and innocent over everything..we could enjoy anything together not even v a little bit of discrimination..i miss my hometown badly as i feel free to b there..and there are some friends who accompanied me since my childhood..they could share my happiness and even sorrows..i juz so miss all of them~meelin~who is d one having longest friendship v me..cares me whenever i need..show her appreciation towards our friendship and i really wish to hug her right now!!!and not to forget a lot more~jye gin n mui hui..miss u both so much..all of u craved a lot of memories for me~~big big applause to u al!!!

Not going to complain anymore..that's how i comfort myself each time i fall..there is still beautiful part of life which i get it from here..yup..there is!!!i still have friends v me..we form our group in class although nt much of us but they had been accompany me to go through many things..thx to u al~~ i have my buddy~hoay shuang here too..giving me support all d time..appreciate it lotz~~and of course my friendly hs mate..enjoy staying v them..

Life is not as ugly as what i tin..rite?..but why i use to hate it..!!!i was getting tired and tired..weaker and weaker..tis place doesn't look right for..something must have gone wrong..perhaps d way how ppl behave here..they just can't get me right..or maybe the hectic lifestyle over here which drive me crazy..many many more reasons to actually convince me--this is not d place where i should belong..!!!

~My kampar~ipoh trip~

Hi there..such a hiatus since d very last day i updated my blog..was having real hectic life lately..oops i should nt say it in this way..it should be it is always very hectic in my life..arghh..visited kampar couple days ago..thx god i made my way to there and d very important thing was i met my very dear friends again!!!i missed them a lotz and i was so excited to see them again!!!

especially thx to hooi ting~my superb sweet friend..she is always by my side to support and help out since d very 1st day i met her..listen to me whenever i need a pair of ear..she has made herself a very best friend to me..thx lotz lotz..n nt foget to show my appreciation to jane~she is so kind and warm..bringing us a lot of happiness^^i enjoyed shopping and chatting v them whole day..all of these left me so tired at d night because i was too enjoyed and i don even realized i was running out of energy!!!asking myself..starting from when since i forgot to smile and laugh?..since i was coming to kl??ya..probably pressure n stress has actually grabbed my happiness away..but on d day i visited them..i laughed whole day and juz on that moment..i actually convinced myself~~life may be still beautiful indeed!!!thx both of u so so much~~

will miss all of these so much~~i'm sure i will pay my visit again~~n welcome for coming too..do tk care gals~~may all of us having great life then!!!