~Random thoughts during Bali trip~

Having few days vacation in Bali, I am thankful everything was just very fine, with friendly driver cum tour guide, warm service from the people here, even when they were always trying to sell something or promoting in their local and traditional market, I am actually feeling ok with their aggressive way of selling, hahax:) Thinking of I can see by myself how they live their lives, their stong believe in religion, their culture, the way they speak, the way they earn their livings, this trip is going to be a special and interesting trip as most often, we see more people more than their remarkable buildings or monumens. This is instead a very nice experience for me:) Went through their local markets, there are so many markets over here, mostly selling handicrafts, art works, paintings, souvenier, batik and etc. Badically they sell quite the same thing among all the shops. One interesting habit here in the market is Bargaining. Depends on how well you are, you can actually bargain to up to 70% off sometimes. The people here are good at bargaining with tourist, start with an unbelievable expensive and they welcome you to bargain. Is like playing game and see who will give way. However, sometimes they are having very hot temper, they scold if you don't buy. Came across some shops , the ladies serve only European, thinking maybe they look down on us when we ask them question in Malay. Feel disappointed and definitely bad experience when they demand us to give way to European customers while we have to exit using another side which is actually far away. We did not argue, though I think we have the right, but just not to make it big, we keep quiet and go. The ladies exposed themselves as a short-sighted character, not educated or professional at all, pricing people by looking only at their skin, one word for them ~ cheap! Sometimes, maybe, they forgot their own position and they totally did not aware they are actually speaking in Bahasa too:) Brilliant for them:) A little bit of bad experience dfinitely would not spoilt my mood:) Still, the beautiful beaches and wonderful water sport activities would have made me mussed Bali a lot!!!:)

Simplicity

People have always wanted to live a simple life, yet when we are all the time trapped in a rather complicated environment, there can be no possibility for us to lead an easier life. I can think so much that my head actually couldn't bear so much, I would put everything on my shoulder but actually they couldn't take that much.

Things can always be different when you choose to adopt different spec. Things that we couldn't take, should we let them go? Wisdom is such a very special characteristic that it can always be found in a poor yet satisfied family, but usually, not in rich family. Some people desperate for something and when they really held it in hand, they lost another thing that might be even more important to them. We have always been confused when the world keep changing, as we keep on chasing different needs and wants. But when we finally vacant a space for our mind to think and analyse, what is the real important thing that we should really hold on tight?

Is late at night when I have this sudden thought in my mind. Praying for something better to come when I hide in my blanket waiting for my mind to stop thinking :)

放晴吧！~~

今天，天气晴朗~

把脑袋放空~

因为~我只想要快快乐乐，简简单单~

祝福大家 :)

♥

♥~心在飞，路很长，我们是彼此的避风港~♥

you light up my life~我想和你分享，我们心动十分的梦想~~

未来正在等待，不是吗？~~

Happy Birthday ♥Dad♥

It's so soon that you will celebrate this year's birthday again!!! and is so blessed that I will be back to M'sia already on that day =))

I miss u so much!!! thanks for raising me up with much much love♥

♥Thank God I'm given a wonderful daddy♥

Lamb Bananas are everywhere in UK =)))

Taken near my university~located outside d restaurant~

Taken at Liverpool Football Club~~

Enjoy in UK =)))

♥The amazing Minack Theatre♥

The Minack Theatre is an open-air theatre, constructed above a gully with a rocky granite outcrop jutting into the sea. The theatre is located 4 miles (6.4 km) from Land's End in Cornwall, United Kingdom.

We enjoyed very much over there and what's so special is that the sea water is near to only 0°C!!!

Was such a great experience for all of us and the view over there is really breath taking =))) We swam, we played and we laugh ~~

♥I Love the Day very much!!!=)))♥

想念~~

想念，在我的心里，逐渐强烈；想起好多事情，开心与不开心，人们渐渐淡忘一些我们曾经都很在乎的事；是事过境迁，还是人心难测？或许还很想追忆过去，但却有种心有余而力不足的感觉。。。有些事情，一旦你让它流失，或许就是永远失去；即使找回来，感觉也不再一样了。。。

=.=

太多事情,我不想记得;太多心情,我很想抹灭,可以吗?

How can I know, if you don't say~

Ya! How can I know if you don't say?

We talk a lot each and everyday...

but most of us, sadly to say,

most likely to miss out the most important words to tell;

the words that can change you and your loved one's life;

the words that are meaningful enough to someone special;

the words that can change someone's perception;

the words that can change your life;

the words that can bring the beauty of relationship;

the words that can replace any romantic arrangement;

the words that can tell something from your heart;

the words that you hide from someone long time ago;

the words that you wish to tell but has failed to;

the words that you keep and keep and keep;

finally dies in your deep heart's core;

no one else would know; no one else would care;

Because~

If you don't say, how can I know?

My dear,

No matter what you want to tell,

Tell it before you regret.

Times lapsed and things changed,

We have no control on anything.

Treasure every moment we have with everyone,

Show how much you love and care them.

They would probably eager to hear it from you.

Love is all around;

and they remain only if you show it out:)

心...碎...

心渐渐劳累, 很明白, 再也回不了过去;

以往的回忆越来越清晰, 才知道, 其实更折磨.

很想说, 其实我在意, 其实我难过,

事过境迁, 还是人心改变?

很感动一直拥有这样要好的朋友, 我心存感激.

偏偏, 大家都身在困境, 实在不想有谁受伤.

误会可以杀人, 能剥夺一切.

心里对对方的关怀, 还有谁说得出口?

彼此建立的友谊, 是时间培养出来, 一点一滴, 都很珍贵;

可惜, 摧毁时, 却没有半点犹豫.

遗下的, 是心碎, 是遗憾.

很想问, 为什么事情就不能好好解决? 为什么非得弄僵局面?

是否双方都有一定的责任?

牵强, 是辛苦的.

回想当初是如何相识, 如何变得要好;

回想一起欢笑, 说自己尴尬的事;

回过头来, 才知道, 我再也改变不了什么.

后悔为何开始这场误会, 如果早知如此, 我们都不会做这样的决定.

如果从此形同陌路, 心有不舍, 但我又能做些什么?

学习到怎么不掉眼泪, 即使难过, 相信总会过去;

明白自己也会冲动, 但请谅解, 我也会心疼.

事情发生了, 就再也弥补不了什么,

只希望, 一切都会过去, 然后又回到原点.

而我, 仍然珍惜, 这个好朋友.

Life Keeps on Moving~

Sometimes I was doubted by myself, seriously. There's always a determinant inside my heart, my mind and even my soul that would every moment eagerly wanted me to perform well, in almost every part of my life. I hate to regret, if I supposed to get something in my hand, then I should have got it. I try to do my best in my studies, try to score in every test and exam, I know I don't deserve a chance to retry for failure. Time is always being limited, not left much for me if I wish to achieve all d dreams in my life. I almost cried when I found out that there's a big mistake in my answer sheet for my taxation test. I blamed myself, I should not do such a stupid mistake since I have gone through this again and again. And I finally realize ''is not a real good thing if you are so clear or expert about something'' you will get yourself wrong because you always perceive that you will always get it right! and the cruel truth is that ''you have to accept and admit that you have done some mistake which you yourself think that it will never happen on u''..overvalue myself?yup!perhaps...

There's always kind-hearted ppl around , telling me that failure is never a big deal, we can fight towards it!yup~i used to be so positive-thinking a while ago, but finally come out v my own conclusion which is ''we do not have so much time to fail and to wake up and to retry'' Life is just like a war, try hard you will survive. I have always remind myself, ''ppl are evaluating me, all d time'' to spot my mistake and to replace me v someone else. I learned this from job. We have to be alert all d time when those spy are actually around to bring you into d troubles. And finally I make myself think this way ''All is on our own''.

To make myself a better person, failure may help a lot. I have to learn from it, and I have to be always quick to recover..There's too much challenges awaiting right in front of me~And I know I have to be always Be Ready!

Can I take a break?

Was totally exhausted since I came bc fr Redang trip and went bc to college life..Let's see..I was never setting down for weeks I think..This was killing me I thought and I finally have to admit I isn't super woman though I think I should have gone a little bit farer~feel disappointed with that actually..Hmm..honestly speaking..I have a lot of plan in mind..I have a lot of so called ambitious..I have too much to dream on..I have too much to achieve..and most of the time, I don't even realize..I may not have enough strength..how sad is it huh?Tell myself I have to be really persevere and God knows how much I sacrifice for things that I have been desperately wish for such long time..and I do really think that everything I pay for it worth much more than that!!I just need more time..more patience..more strength..more courage..and I guess everything would be fine!!!Still strive for that..though is really tiring~~

My current daily life is always full with job interviews,working,attend class and probably handling some household stuff..and I'm surprised that time lapsed much more faster than I could ever imagine and I finally found that things never go according to my original plan~travelling here and there and I really have to cope v a lot of problems with just myself...

I'm always thinking of should I make myself so miserably tired and busy?ended up realizing that I am not given a choice most of the time~I have to be speedy in order to be on track..need money to pay for my swimming lesson,piano lesson,yoga and bla bla bla..feel not so good to ask from parents again..think I should figure out some of my living expenses myself..aiks!!but is such a burden for a student rite??I have to be strong~~

Sometimes I was thinking how good it would be if i have just some time for me to take a nap or just to do nothing..no rushing time..and it is totally relax~~Has been long time ago since I lost this kind of feelings..Wish I can lie down on the beach now..enjoying the lapping of water and the beauty of seaview..I would probably fall asleep easily over there~Miss the beach of Redang badly~~

~Back from Internship-->Beginning of college life~

Finally ended my 2 and a half month internship programme!~I was always thinking of how good would it be if I can go back to college immediately since d first week I started my internship..But when it had come to the time when I really have to say good bye..I feel so hard to do so..Missed them a lot..and thanks to all the managers and seniors who have taught me a lot..Thanks!!~Failed to control myself on the day when I left the company..my tears couldn't stop dropping down when they hugged me and leave me some kind advice..Things never wonderful isn't it?Perhaps I will become a better me only if I go through all these..Do take care ya all of my colleagues..will miss u al!!!

Starting point of a new semester~should pursue better result and I might as well complete all my wishes which I have made long time ago~not going to delay anything anymore~I must achieve what I want myself to achieve!!!~

Gambateh for everyone~

~Ramblings~

It's finally come to thursday's night..and again friday's coming..if I said it has been a tiring week..probably ppl wil reverting me in this way:"what you expect from working life?everyone is experiencing the same thing..and is meaningless when you keep complaining..so don't crab anymore''aiks~~what to do..when you tell me there's always choices in life..and I would tell you there's always obstacle to choices in life..and your turn telling me ''this is life''..omg!!!~~

Never thought i will work off my anger on a waitress today in a mamak stall..not having good mood when everything comes in one shot and was like:''can everything just leave me alone?''i don't like when i'm feeling really uncomfortable with smth and d worst thing is I would still have to keep quiet because complaining is never a smart choice..so..when i ordered food in the stall and thinking that i would at least get some rest..the waitress give such big disappointment by bringing the wrongly ordered food..she pissed me off when she tried to protect herself by saying i'm d one who ordered wrongly..ok..no chance for her and I start ''scolding''..i don't really express my feeling especially anger, what i would do normally is just trying to keep quiet..and she was bad luck when i couldn't take this anymore..should not be in this way so i really hope everybody will think for others cuz you will never know you cause the anger while others are trying to keep it down~~

My bf is currently facing difficulty in his company..he was assigned a task which he has no idea what is that about and the worst thing is even other staffs including the boss himself has no idea either..d boss is trying to get someone to investigate everything for him while he is d one who enjoys the results..okay..boss should have such power but pls be reminded that when you yourself know nth and you should have no power to demand how well the result which your employees can give you..yup!!you have no power even you are d boss!!i'm taking up the task to assist you but pls be aware that even i'm your employees,I should at least get some respect and kind concern from you..you pay me for the jobs done and i wil try my best too..if you were to complain and criticize other's performance but at the same time you are not a good modal..you are not smart at all..never judge ppl's hardwork because you would never know how much effort they put in for you..and you would finally lose them because you never learn to appreciate...what is so proud of when your employees choose to leave some bad comments for you and switch to other company..

Stand up for those ppl who have to endure with uncomfortable working environment and unfriendly employer or colleagues..you have nth to blame on yourself..what you can do is strive for the better one..everyone is not born to be a loser..and you should be respected..i'm happy and I feel lucky I got friendly seniors and managers..for those who don't have..you shall believe one day you could change the situation...

It's tiring Monday again...

Hi all..it had been a tiring week since last monday..my intern partner was taking 2 days' leave and I actually got to share up his assigned work..it's actually good when i get to learn more..but d another way round..i was superb tired..i'm happy if everything i done is appreciated..even if d case i made mistakes..i hope for forgiveness and understanding..i might do some mistakes if my work loads become heavier and when d time more ppl count on me..my pressure level is increasing incrementally, and sometimes drastically!!!Pressure can be good..at least i know my level and what i can perform..with or without guidance..I truly understand how staffs rate self-enrichment at work place for such a high percentage..and at d same time..why they want to be appreciated desperately..even they might not get a satisfying figure of salary..everyone wants to be respected and everyone wish to make things better with their existence and everyone want their existence to be aware..ya..definitely!!!

I'm so happy when i get d chance to work with my existing managers..they are superb understanding and they do pay attention and concern to us..even when i lose control, letting my feelings to explode, and finally tears dropping down silently, i got their consolation and they lead me through d way which i clearly understand these are all the tough circumstances which i hv to go through if i wish to success..big thanks to them and some seniors who really so caring and warm..i love them~~

Fall sick again..hard to recover fully since last month when i actually fall sick seriously..fever+sore throat is killing me..some more when i hv to work and it seems there is never an end for my assignments..scary actually...

Wish i can fully recover by tml morning and all the best for tml's work~~wish everyone out of this screen have a good night sleep~~

If I could relax~~

I am thinking if I can have a good rest, especially when I'm totally not in a good mood, it should be perfect. At least, better than nothing.

It's hard to tolerate everything in life and even I have tried my best, it might not be perfect in other's eyes. And yea, I should not care about that, but when others keep thinking I'm not doing my best and I'm not playing smart enough, I was losing my mind, seriously. Did I tend to be purposely doing all the mistakes? Or did I purposely act like a fool?=[ I'm trying to be d best of me..and I'm sure everyone is doing the same. Just that in the process of learning..I might need even more luck than anyone else would need, cuz i really wish to learn..as fast as possible..as many as possible..and it is always not too possible when I cannot accomplish all these by just myself..I need patience..I need guidance..I need luck.. Best luck to myself~~

Keep cooling down..no big deal..nothing's gonna break me down..

While everything is like such a mess in my daily life..I am stealing some bits of life for myself~~Let's relax~~

Good luck everyone~~

I experiencing little sweetness from them~~

When the moment she said "Is ok, don't worry" and letting her hand to place on my shoulder gently, I feel her warmness and the concern sent by her touched my heart. I will never know how lucky I am to have a such a chance to work with such nice managers when I'm going through my internship program. When the moment I fell sick seriously and when most of the people will choose to stay distance from me, afraid that my sickness is going to affect them, there are these small group of ppl stand by my side to support me telling me i will be ok and i'm not infected. And ya, is them!!!my close friends from my workplace and my managers~~I sincerely thank them and I really appreciate every little concern they try to send to me~~They change my point-of-view and I seriously realize there are kindness and understanding in this such big listed company.

I was so scared when i have to go through the blood test and there are friends stay beside me while there are people who try to stop them saying that they will be infected by my serious sickness. And through this, I get to experience the sincere of the friendship and the another way round how people can think and act when they only care for themselves. This is normal, my dad told me..Nothing to sad about, maybe..

In between of the internship program, I learn much more than what I ought to learn. I would have to say..they change me in some way, it could be just a little, to become a better me. And of this, I accomplished the other part of me and the way how i should see life with heart but not only with eyes~~

Sincerely thanks the managers and the seniors who tend to be patient with me and always being understanding and forgiving. Nothing would worth much than going through such complete learning process of life with you guys~~

Sending my regards here~~Good night~~

~A visit from my dear friend~

My tiring Saturday finally ends here.Doing the same v last week's one-->keyboard lesson + giving tuition.I waited for the bus to go to the student's hs in the afternoon and the Rapid's driver disappointed me by saying the bus will only move in an hour time.ok..no choice..taxi again!..can thay juz follow the schedule will do?they don't really care for public and punctuality will never be in their mind..what the***after 2 hours tuition..i walked along the residential area to get to the bus stop.One motor cyclist made his way to me in a real fast speed i would say..i lost my mind and wondering what he would do to me?snatch my bag?playing fool v me?i nearly ran into one of the houses there where the gate was actually opened at that moment.I was scared.I hate those ppl who has nth to do and they make use of their time by lepak on the road and convict some offence.what is running in their mind..i'm wondering.They hv no moral and totally immature.They get excited when we are being frightened by their scary faces.oh no..can anyone do smth to prevent these..don't think so either..

Finally my keyboard lesson ended this week..asking whether will I go for the test.I have no idea..I couldn't find benefits from it either..or mayb i should just stop everything now and I would get myself started only in next sem..will find a good and qualified tutor for myself i think.><

Was thinking a lot about human's behavior lately..Everyone has their own behavior and we may find it very difficult to match our's to others' one.Even among friends, there are cases like this.Normally, we would think for others' feelings before we actually say smth or we should nt do anything which we know this will hurt other.But how many ppl will actually thinking the same v us?For them, they might have different point of view and they are firm enough v their own standpoint which you don't agree at all.How many of them will care for u?They don't even willing to admit the mistake done by them.For them, all the mistakes may become yours.Think before we speak, think before we act.We would never want to hurt anyone whom we care a lot.

A friend of mine visiting me today and I was surprised by her visit.Miss her a lot and she reminds me of a lot memories that we had before.It's hard to get someone being so understanding and she keeps our promise for friendship.I'm wishing her d best for her future life and may she stay happily always v her loved one.I'm really thankful for those friends who stay v me since my childhood and and I would really want to keep them v me forever.A big thanks to all my friends giving me so much love and support!!!

Good night for everyone~~