♥~Kexin's~♥

Simplicity

2011-10-24T07:38:00.001-07:00

People have always wanted to live a simple life, yet when we are all the time trapped in a rather complicated environment, there can be no possibility for us to lead an easier life. I can think so much that my head actually couldn't bear so much, I would put everything on my shoulder but actually they couldn't take that much.

Things can always be different when you choose to adopt different spec. Things that we couldn't take, should we let them go? Wisdom is such a very special characteristic that it can always be found in a poor yet satisfied family, but usually, not in rich family. Some people desperate for something and when they really held it in hand, they lost another thing that might be even more important to them. We have always been confused when the world keep changing, as we keep on chasing different needs and wants. But when we finally vacant a space for our mind to think and analyse, what is the real important thing that we should really hold on tight?

Is late at night when I have this sudden thought in my mind. Praying for something better to come when I hide in my blanket waiting for my mind to stop thinking :)

放晴吧！~~

2011-08-15T22:30:00.000-07:00

今天，天气晴朗~

把脑袋放空~

因为~我只想要快快乐乐，简简单单~

祝福大家 :)

♥

2011-08-04T12:59:00.000-07:00

♥~心在飞，路很长，我们是彼此的避风港~♥

you light up my life~我想和你分享，我们心动十分的梦想~~

未来正在等待，不是吗？~~

Happy Birthday ♥Dad♥

2011-08-04T02:49:00.000-07:00

It's so soon that you will celebrate this year's birthday again!!! and is so blessed that I will be back to M'sia already on that day =))

I miss u so much!!! thanks for raising me up with much much love♥

♥Thank God I'm given a wonderful daddy♥

Lamb Bananas are everywhere in UK =)))

2011-08-03T14:02:00.000-07:00

Taken near my university~located outside d restaurant~

Taken at Liverpool Football Club~~

Enjoy in UK =)))

♥The amazing Minack Theatre♥

2011-08-03T12:16:00.000-07:00

The Minack Theatre is an open-air theatre, constructed above a gully with a rocky granite outcrop jutting into the sea. The theatre is located 4 miles (6.4 km) from Land's End in Cornwall, United Kingdom.

We enjoyed very much over there and what's so special is that the sea water is near to only 0°C!!!

Was such a great experience for all of us and the view over there is really breath taking =))) We swam, we played and we laugh ~~

♥I Love the Day very much!!!=)))♥

想念~~

2011-06-18T09:48:00.000-07:00

想念，在我的心里，逐渐强烈；想起好多事情，开心与不开心，人们渐渐淡忘一些我们曾经都很在乎的事；是事过境迁，还是人心难测？或许还很想追忆过去，但却有种心有余而力不足的感觉。。。有些事情，一旦你让它流失，或许就是永远失去；即使找回来，感觉也不再一样了。。。

=.=

2010-12-14T19:55:00.000-08:00

太多事情,我不想记得;太多心情,我很想抹灭,可以吗?

How can I know, if you don't say~

2010-08-25T07:15:00.000-07:00

Ya! How can I know if you don't say?

We talk a lot each and everyday...

but most of us, sadly to say,

most likely to miss out the most important words to tell;

the words that can change you and your loved one's life;

the words that are meaningful enough to someone special;

the words that can change someone's perception;

the words that can change your life;

the words that can bring the beauty of relationship;

the words that can replace any romantic arrangement;

the words that can tell something from your heart;

the words that you hide from someone long time ago;

the words that you wish to tell but has failed to;

the words that you keep and keep and keep;

finally dies in your deep heart's core;

no one else would know; no one else would care;

Because~

If you don't say, how can I know?

My dear,

No matter what you want to tell,

Tell it before you regret.

Times lapsed and things changed,

We have no control on anything.

Treasure every moment we have with everyone,

Show how much you love and care them.

They would probably eager to hear it from you.

Love is all around;

and they remain only if you show it out:)

心...碎...

2010-08-10T08:06:00.000-07:00

心渐渐劳累, 很明白, 再也回不了过去;

以往的回忆越来越清晰, 才知道, 其实更折磨.

很想说, 其实我在意, 其实我难过,

事过境迁, 还是人心改变?

很感动一直拥有这样要好的朋友, 我心存感激.

偏偏, 大家都身在困境, 实在不想有谁受伤.

误会可以杀人, 能剥夺一切.

心里对对方的关怀, 还有谁说得出口?

彼此建立的友谊, 是时间培养出来, 一点一滴, 都很珍贵;

可惜, 摧毁时, 却没有半点犹豫.

遗下的, 是心碎, 是遗憾.

很想问, 为什么事情就不能好好解决? 为什么非得弄僵局面?

是否双方都有一定的责任?

牵强, 是辛苦的.

回想当初是如何相识, 如何变得要好;

回想一起欢笑, 说自己尴尬的事;

回过头来, 才知道, 我再也改变不了什么.

后悔为何开始这场误会, 如果早知如此, 我们都不会做这样的决定.

如果从此形同陌路, 心有不舍, 但我又能做些什么?

学习到怎么不掉眼泪, 即使难过, 相信总会过去;

明白自己也会冲动, 但请谅解, 我也会心疼.

事情发生了, 就再也弥补不了什么,

只希望, 一切都会过去, 然后又回到原点.

而我, 仍然珍惜, 这个好朋友.

Life Keeps on Moving~

2010-07-08T05:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I was doubted by myself, seriously. There's always a determinant inside my heart, my mind and even my soul that would every moment eagerly wanted me to perform well, in almost every part of my life. I hate to regret, if I supposed to get something in my hand, then I should have got it. I try to do my best in my studies, try to score in every test and exam, I know I don't deserve a chance to retry for failure. Time is always being limited, not left much for me if I wish to achieve all d dreams in my life. I almost cried when I found out that there's a big mistake in my answer sheet for my taxation test. I blamed myself, I should not do such a stupid mistake since I have gone through this again and again. And I finally realize ''is not a real good thing if you are so clear or expert about something'' you will get yourself wrong because you always perceive that you will always get it right! and the cruel truth is that ''you have to accept and admit that you have done some mistake which you yourself think that it will never happen on u''..overvalue myself?yup!perhaps...

There's always kind-hearted ppl around , telling me that failure is never a big deal, we can fight towards it!yup~i used to be so positive-thinking a while ago, but finally come out v my own conclusion which is ''we do not have so much time to fail and to wake up and to retry'' Life is just like a war, try hard you will survive. I have always remind myself, ''ppl are evaluating me, all d time'' to spot my mistake and to replace me v someone else. I learned this from job. We have to be alert all d time when those spy are actually around to bring you into d troubles. And finally I make myself think this way ''All is on our own''.

To make myself a better person, failure may help a lot. I have to learn from it, and I have to be always quick to recover..There's too much challenges awaiting right in front of me~And I know I have to be always Be Ready!

2010-06-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

Can I take a break?

2010-05-24T00:47:00.000-07:00

Was totally exhausted since I came bc fr Redang trip and went bc to college life..Let's see..I was never setting down for weeks I think..This was killing me I thought and I finally have to admit I isn't super woman though I think I should have gone a little bit farer~feel disappointed with that actually..Hmm..honestly speaking..I have a lot of plan in mind..I have a lot of so called ambitious..I have too much to dream on..I have too much to achieve..and most of the time, I don't even realize..I may not have enough strength..how sad is it huh?Tell myself I have to be really persevere and God knows how much I sacrifice for things that I have been desperately wish for such long time..and I do really think that everything I pay for it worth much more than that!!I just need more time..more patience..more strength..more courage..and I guess everything would be fine!!!Still strive for that..though is really tiring~~

My current daily life is always full with job interviews,working,attend class and probably handling some household stuff..and I'm surprised that time lapsed much more faster than I could ever imagine and I finally found that things never go according to my original plan~travelling here and there and I really have to cope v a lot of problems with just myself...

I'm always thinking of should I make myself so miserably tired and busy?ended up realizing that I am not given a choice most of the time~I have to be speedy in order to be on track..need money to pay for my swimming lesson,piano lesson,yoga and bla bla bla..feel not so good to ask from parents again..think I should figure out some of my living expenses myself..aiks!!but is such a burden for a student rite??I have to be strong~~

Sometimes I was thinking how good it would be if i have just some time for me to take a nap or just to do nothing..no rushing time..and it is totally relax~~Has been long time ago since I lost this kind of feelings..Wish I can lie down on the beach now..enjoying the lapping of water and the beauty of seaview..I would probably fall asleep easily over there~Miss the beach of Redang badly~~

~Back from Internship-->Beginning of college life~

2010-05-21T23:45:00.000-07:00

Finally ended my 2 and a half month internship programme!~I was always thinking of how good would it be if I can go back to college immediately since d first week I started my internship..But when it had come to the time when I really have to say good bye..I feel so hard to do so..Missed them a lot..and thanks to all the managers and seniors who have taught me a lot..Thanks!!~Failed to control myself on the day when I left the company..my tears couldn't stop dropping down when they hugged me and leave me some kind advice..Things never wonderful isn't it?Perhaps I will become a better me only if I go through all these..Do take care ya all of my colleagues..will miss u al!!!

Starting point of a new semester~should pursue better result and I might as well complete all my wishes which I have made long time ago~not going to delay anything anymore~I must achieve what I want myself to achieve!!!~

Gambateh for everyone~

~Ramblings~

2010-05-06T06:11:00.000-07:00

It's finally come to thursday's night..and again friday's coming..if I said it has been a tiring week..probably ppl wil reverting me in this way:"what you expect from working life?everyone is experiencing the same thing..and is meaningless when you keep complaining..so don't crab anymore''aiks~~what to do..when you tell me there's always choices in life..and I would tell you there's always obstacle to choices in life..and your turn telling me ''this is life''..omg!!!~~

Never thought i will work off my anger on a waitress today in a mamak stall..not having good mood when everything comes in one shot and was like:''can everything just leave me alone?''i don't like when i'm feeling really uncomfortable with smth and d worst thing is I would still have to keep quiet because complaining is never a smart choice..so..when i ordered food in the stall and thinking that i would at least get some rest..the waitress give such big disappointment by bringing the wrongly ordered food..she pissed me off when she tried to protect herself by saying i'm d one who ordered wrongly..ok..no chance for her and I start ''scolding''..i don't really express my feeling especially anger, what i would do normally is just trying to keep quiet..and she was bad luck when i couldn't take this anymore..should not be in this way so i really hope everybody will think for others cuz you will never know you cause the anger while others are trying to keep it down~~

My bf is currently facing difficulty in his company..he was assigned a task which he has no idea what is that about and the worst thing is even other staffs including the boss himself has no idea either..d boss is trying to get someone to investigate everything for him while he is d one who enjoys the results..okay..boss should have such power but pls be reminded that when you yourself know nth and you should have no power to demand how well the result which your employees can give you..yup!!you have no power even you are d boss!!i'm taking up the task to assist you but pls be aware that even i'm your employees,I should at least get some respect and kind concern from you..you pay me for the jobs done and i wil try my best too..if you were to complain and criticize other's performance but at the same time you are not a good modal..you are not smart at all..never judge ppl's hardwork because you would never know how much effort they put in for you..and you would finally lose them because you never learn to appreciate...what is so proud of when your employees choose to leave some bad comments for you and switch to other company..

Stand up for those ppl who have to endure with uncomfortable working environment and unfriendly employer or colleagues..you have nth to blame on yourself..what you can do is strive for the better one..everyone is not born to be a loser..and you should be respected..i'm happy and I feel lucky I got friendly seniors and managers..for those who don't have..you shall believe one day you could change the situation...

It's tiring Monday again...

2010-04-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

Hi all..it had been a tiring week since last monday..my intern partner was taking 2 days' leave and I actually got to share up his assigned work..it's actually good when i get to learn more..but d another way round..i was superb tired..i'm happy if everything i done is appreciated..even if d case i made mistakes..i hope for forgiveness and understanding..i might do some mistakes if my work loads become heavier and when d time more ppl count on me..my pressure level is increasing incrementally, and sometimes drastically!!!Pressure can be good..at least i know my level and what i can perform..with or without guidance..I truly understand how staffs rate self-enrichment at work place for such a high percentage..and at d same time..why they want to be appreciated desperately..even they might not get a satisfying figure of salary..everyone wants to be respected and everyone wish to make things better with their existence and everyone want their existence to be aware..ya..definitely!!!

I'm so happy when i get d chance to work with my existing managers..they are superb understanding and they do pay attention and concern to us..even when i lose control, letting my feelings to explode, and finally tears dropping down silently, i got their consolation and they lead me through d way which i clearly understand these are all the tough circumstances which i hv to go through if i wish to success..big thanks to them and some seniors who really so caring and warm..i love them~~

Fall sick again..hard to recover fully since last month when i actually fall sick seriously..fever+sore throat is killing me..some more when i hv to work and it seems there is never an end for my assignments..scary actually...

Wish i can fully recover by tml morning and all the best for tml's work~~wish everyone out of this screen have a good night sleep~~

If I could relax~~

2010-04-21T07:00:00.000-07:00

I am thinking if I can have a good rest, especially when I'm totally not in a good mood, it should be perfect. At least, better than nothing.

It's hard to tolerate everything in life and even I have tried my best, it might not be perfect in other's eyes. And yea, I should not care about that, but when others keep thinking I'm not doing my best and I'm not playing smart enough, I was losing my mind, seriously. Did I tend to be purposely doing all the mistakes? Or did I purposely act like a fool?=[ I'm trying to be d best of me..and I'm sure everyone is doing the same. Just that in the process of learning..I might need even more luck than anyone else would need, cuz i really wish to learn..as fast as possible..as many as possible..and it is always not too possible when I cannot accomplish all these by just myself..I need patience..I need guidance..I need luck.. Best luck to myself~~

Keep cooling down..no big deal..nothing's gonna break me down..

While everything is like such a mess in my daily life..I am stealing some bits of life for myself~~Let's relax~~

Good luck everyone~~

I experiencing little sweetness from them~~

2010-04-18T08:53:00.000-07:00

When the moment she said "Is ok, don't worry" and letting her hand to place on my shoulder gently, I feel her warmness and the concern sent by her touched my heart. I will never know how lucky I am to have a such a chance to work with such nice managers when I'm going through my internship program. When the moment I fell sick seriously and when most of the people will choose to stay distance from me, afraid that my sickness is going to affect them, there are these small group of ppl stand by my side to support me telling me i will be ok and i'm not infected. And ya, is them!!!my close friends from my workplace and my managers~~I sincerely thank them and I really appreciate every little concern they try to send to me~~They change my point-of-view and I seriously realize there are kindness and understanding in this such big listed company.

I was so scared when i have to go through the blood test and there are friends stay beside me while there are people who try to stop them saying that they will be infected by my serious sickness. And through this, I get to experience the sincere of the friendship and the another way round how people can think and act when they only care for themselves. This is normal, my dad told me..Nothing to sad about, maybe..

In between of the internship program, I learn much more than what I ought to learn. I would have to say..they change me in some way, it could be just a little, to become a better me. And of this, I accomplished the other part of me and the way how i should see life with heart but not only with eyes~~

Sincerely thanks the managers and the seniors who tend to be patient with me and always being understanding and forgiving. Nothing would worth much than going through such complete learning process of life with you guys~~

Sending my regards here~~Good night~~

~A visit from my dear friend~

2010-04-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

My tiring Saturday finally ends here.Doing the same v last week's one-->keyboard lesson + giving tuition.I waited for the bus to go to the student's hs in the afternoon and the Rapid's driver disappointed me by saying the bus will only move in an hour time.ok..no choice..taxi again!..can thay juz follow the schedule will do?they don't really care for public and punctuality will never be in their mind..what the***after 2 hours tuition..i walked along the residential area to get to the bus stop.One motor cyclist made his way to me in a real fast speed i would say..i lost my mind and wondering what he would do to me?snatch my bag?playing fool v me?i nearly ran into one of the houses there where the gate was actually opened at that moment.I was scared.I hate those ppl who has nth to do and they make use of their time by lepak on the road and convict some offence.what is running in their mind..i'm wondering.They hv no moral and totally immature.They get excited when we are being frightened by their scary faces.oh no..can anyone do smth to prevent these..don't think so either..

Finally my keyboard lesson ended this week..asking whether will I go for the test.I have no idea..I couldn't find benefits from it either..or mayb i should just stop everything now and I would get myself started only in next sem..will find a good and qualified tutor for myself i think.><

Was thinking a lot about human's behavior lately..Everyone has their own behavior and we may find it very difficult to match our's to others' one.Even among friends, there are cases like this.Normally, we would think for others' feelings before we actually say smth or we should nt do anything which we know this will hurt other.But how many ppl will actually thinking the same v us?For them, they might have different point of view and they are firm enough v their own standpoint which you don't agree at all.How many of them will care for u?They don't even willing to admit the mistake done by them.For them, all the mistakes may become yours.Think before we speak, think before we act.We would never want to hurt anyone whom we care a lot.

A friend of mine visiting me today and I was surprised by her visit.Miss her a lot and she reminds me of a lot memories that we had before.It's hard to get someone being so understanding and she keeps our promise for friendship.I'm wishing her d best for her future life and may she stay happily always v her loved one.I'm really thankful for those friends who stay v me since my childhood and and I would really want to keep them v me forever.A big thanks to all my friends giving me so much love and support!!!

Good night for everyone~~

:(:(:(

2010-03-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

I have been superb tired lately..since my last update..i mentioned that i m currently going for internship program..basically i work 5 days a week..left my pleasure weekend..i stil hv to rush for keyboard lesson and teaching tuition as well..why i hv to make myself so busy and tension?..i am wondering actually..i'm nt given a chance to choose?there's no better choice?mayb..since i started first level for keyboard lesson..i'm thinking that it is wasted is i were to give up half way when i haven't actually get myself to learn through it..but did i make a good decision?do i gain something enough during the class?i hv no idea..:(..not born to be a musician?i would rather admit this?..hardly got the time for myself when i stil have to handle tuition for one student..but i'm really excited when i got my pay for all the sacrifice..doin my best to earn much even though i'm stil not doin good actually..feel ashamed when i stil tend to ask money from parents since i got a job..(although d job i have now need more investment on my side and i don't really get much return)..gonna save money?oh no..don't think i will..having damn boring weekend..not feeling good though:(

~A brand new update~

2010-03-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

Such a hiatus since d last time i updated my blog..i guess i was busy enough recently..everytime when i actually get myself to sit in front of my laptop thinking of blogging..some kinda feel running in my mind just like i will never noe when should i start my story and most of d time i use to hv to much to talk about..that's the thing!!..so..give up and go to bed..aiks

Finally started my internship programme at Symphony Corporatehouse.I was told that i am d lucky one to enter into tis company to learn smth about the real corporate world since it is among d 'BIG FOUR' company in Malaysia and i guess i will see smth which others don't see?mayb..I try my best to complete my task and assignment given by each manager and senior and i noe d reality very well which is since i'm nt coming here for money,den at least i must get smth bc in my way..which is experience. I noe i must get myself to learn and i must put in effort by myself..not that everyone will teach or guide you if u keep quiet as if u noe everything..I could be dub and i would not care if u noe i isn't smart enough..d important thing is after all..i should get myself to be real smart~~

One more thing weighing my mind..feel like give up on my keyboard lesson..i noe it's totally wasted since i have started half way..but just that i couldn't get myself to learn properly or to enjoy it..friends telling me mayb i need a good teacher?to understand me well and guide me according to what i could adsorb..ya..mayb..i try to practice even i hv limited time..i guess i noe d theory well,juz that when come to application,i might not be that good.I try not to say 'what an idiot' to myself..i still can be d best even i may lose in some way..but still..i am stress out!!!

Wishing myself could have good working day each morning when i step into my department..i can satisfy each of you guys if i am given chances..ya~~no fool!!!as usual..i wish everyone outside this screen would have a beautiful days alwez..i appreciate much when you guys sitting down to get updated v my blog~~good night!!~~

Stealing time for me to rest here~~

2009-12-08T03:40:00.000-08:00

sort of 'compensation' as i spend alot to buy their products~~diary 2010..but i love it^^

this is d mask pack~~they are nice 2 use~~

specially love this 'salmon brightening eye serum'.can't believe salmon is used as ingredient

Finally got my time o do some ramblings here..and today eventually i cleared up my taxation test which i actually spent a plenty of time cracking my head to prepare for it..damn tiring and torturing..i hate so much when d more i studied, d more confusion i gain from that..a lot of rulings, sections, exemptions, court orders..bla bla bla..okokok, why do we have to know so much on this..oh ya..to pass for d paper? to become a superb tax agent in future? no no no..is to prevent ourselves being cheated in future..or is to find more ways to cheat in future? get so excited when i got my answers right when doing d computation for various type of income..this become some tiny satisfaction for me so that i still think that d effort i put in at least is proven in some ways...

Recently, i am spending a lot on my skin care products..i do rely on skin food very much ever since i first started tried on its basic skin care products such as toner, essence, emulsion and etc..they give rather good effect i think..and the very initial reason for me to try on it is actually skin's food products are made up from vary natural ingredients such as fruits and veges, even the cleanser's ingredient is actually cuppuchino..amazing rite?it does not cause danger to our skin since our skin is actually d most sensitive part of our body..not like d previous product i used to buy..it contains a lot of chemical ingredients inside..although my skin is not directly affected from using it but i was afraid that it might happen on a later day..

I actually has very little knowledge about mask sheet for what i tin of..since different ppl sound their opinion in totally different way..i guess i should really do some serious+careful research on it..some of them said that d mask sheet actually contains alcohol which is bad to our skin although it gives us cooling effect..is that so?while some others told that doin mask is a very important step for gals to keep their skin nice as mask sheet provide easier absorption of vitamins needed for our skin..dono a~~

Putting great effort to fulfill my life recently..although at times things get harder and tougher..but this is life seems to be..d more u strive for it..the more u could gain from that..i deeply agree on that though~~At times..i try to be myself, the real me.however, for some of d times, thing does not work like tat..not everyone of us deserved to own 100% freedom where you can tell what you want, see only d pleasure part of thing, respond only when you feel good, gets angry whenever things around get wrong..but believe me..things do not go tis way..most of d times..we got to accommodate and endure every little unpleasure thing of life..that's how we get ourselves to learn..not everyone will think for u..not everyone will care for u..and such is life..Gosh...

I love ppl who loves me..i care ppl who cares me..things become better when both parties stand for each other without second thought~~wonderful rite??however even though u r standing alone..don't cry but think y u should cry for it? u r still d best even it's just u alone..friends are wonderful when u scare to b alone..try to find one but even if u fail to..stand by urself is nt something too bad..things get really bad only when you yourself don't standby urself...

I wish everyone could have better day everyday when u guys wake up in d morning~~

~Get Back On Track~

2009-11-19T05:59:00.000-08:00

Few days i actually didn't turn up here for blogging..and the moment when i bring myself back here..i guess i would say--I'm recovering..and i'm currently on my way heading to a better situation..a better tomorrow..it's hard to let go something hurt and bad..but what for if you keep holding it?...if you force yourself to be happy..and you know the fact is 'YOU ARE NOT'!!!..never try to tell myself to be happy again..because from things happened to me..i got myself to learn..it is stupid to force ourselves keep smiling but at behind we are actually carrying a real heavy + hectic heart inside us..the beating of pulse don't even indicate we are still alive at that moment though~~

Getting better to face things around now..if I were to say i finally get myself to adapt..am i right?ya..perhaps..and i really hope things will keep on improving as it will enlighten my hope for life at least..i think i know myself pretty well and i know i'm not going to live by myself..reason why is because i m not that strong!!!i need friends and friends will really change my perspective towards a lot of things and perhaps..in some way..they are leading me to become a better me~~good friends can play a real important role in life and i actually agree about this very much..i don't stand by myself but i realize at certain stage of process in life..we got to experience a lot by just ourselves..we feel alone..we need each other..can we make things different?

Get myself involve in a a number of lessons lately..i wish to fulfill my life v meaningful things..i wish to stop myself from thinking noncense v al those unallocated free time..i wish i can learn in every process and hopefully this will make up a better me~~

Let's all of us cheer for life~~

Another depressed one~~

2009-11-07T12:40:00.000-08:00

Was reading through friend's blog..get to know that she was very sad about d leaving of one of d friends among their group..not going to further studies anymore v them..seeing d blog i was like having same feelings and i'm like experiencing d same thoughts v her..we got to choose when d time we actually completed our diploma level in penang..whether u further up to d advanced level in kl, going to utar, or to any other institution..and that's how our sad story begin@@..of course everyone would have different thoughts on where they should further their studies..and it's like making a serious decision which means we actually having superb high percentage to regret on d later time if we just got to choose d wrong one..and perhaps every choices leads to an dead end..

Was crying a lot of times since i came here..even my bf going to force me to stop my studies here and send me bc to hometown..perhaps i will go insane if i were to keep on..worries and tension finally break me down..i would not surrender..i thought..but so what..i was crying on d phone conversation v mom..yearn for d very warm 'home sweet home'..i never been so fragile b4 and this could surprise her i thought..she wanted me to go bc as i would juz gain nothing if i were to live on such unhappy life..miss penang cuz we used to be so simple and innocent over everything..we could enjoy anything together not even v a little bit of discrimination..i miss my hometown badly as i feel free to b there..and there are some friends who accompanied me since my childhood..they could share my happiness and even sorrows..i juz so miss all of them~meelin~who is d one having longest friendship v me..cares me whenever i need..show her appreciation towards our friendship and i really wish to hug her right now!!!and not to forget a lot more~jye gin n mui hui..miss u both so much..all of u craved a lot of memories for me~~big big applause to u al!!!

Not going to complain anymore..that's how i comfort myself each time i fall..there is still beautiful part of life which i get it from here..yup..there is!!!i still have friends v me..we form our group in class although nt much of us but they had been accompany me to go through many things..thx to u al~~ i have my buddy~hoay shuang here too..giving me support all d time..appreciate it lotz~~and of course my friendly hs mate..enjoy staying v them..

Life is not as ugly as what i tin..rite?..but why i use to hate it..!!!i was getting tired and tired..weaker and weaker..tis place doesn't look right for..something must have gone wrong..perhaps d way how ppl behave here..they just can't get me right..or maybe the hectic lifestyle over here which drive me crazy..many many more reasons to actually convince me--this is not d place where i should belong..!!!

~My kampar~ipoh trip~

2009-11-06T21:11:00.000-08:00

Hi there..such a hiatus since d very last day i updated my blog..was having real hectic life lately..oops i should nt say it in this way..it should be it is always very hectic in my life..arghh..visited kampar couple days ago..thx god i made my way to there and d very important thing was i met my very dear friends again!!!i missed them a lotz and i was so excited to see them again!!!

especially thx to hooi ting~my superb sweet friend..she is always by my side to support and help out since d very 1st day i met her..listen to me whenever i need a pair of ear..she has made herself a very best friend to me..thx lotz lotz..n nt foget to show my appreciation to jane~she is so kind and warm..bringing us a lot of happiness^^i enjoyed shopping and chatting v them whole day..all of these left me so tired at d night because i was too enjoyed and i don even realized i was running out of energy!!!asking myself..starting from when since i forgot to smile and laugh?..since i was coming to kl??ya..probably pressure n stress has actually grabbed my happiness away..but on d day i visited them..i laughed whole day and juz on that moment..i actually convinced myself~~life may be still beautiful indeed!!!thx both of u so so much~~

will miss all of these so much~~i'm sure i will pay my visit again~~n welcome for coming too..do tk care gals~~may all of us having great life then!!!

~I Learn to Appreciate Each Tiny Satisfaction in Life~

2009-10-30T08:20:00.000-07:00

~There might be still LOVE exist inside us even things changed~

I were once feeling so upset about all those misfortune which tend to appear in my life..found no way out and i keep on asking myself~'why should i live my life in such a way?such a way that i really hate about..'when everything turned to be so meaningless..i blamed everything and anything~~i should have lived a happy and relaxing life..enjoying while studying..no stress no pain..do things which I really wish to do..go places where i really wish to go..spend time with all those i love about..that's how the definition of life is fulfilled..rite?~~

At d moment I keep on grumbling..I never know i actually ignored d sorrow which suffered by someone who stay by my side and stand for me whenever i need him..i do not realize that he never complain and he never show how it felt when he was so stressful when facing hardship..d situation became even torturing when i failed to appreciate things in life and keep on complaining..when i was speaking through hp v friends telling them how miserable was my life here..i never realize d dinner was well-cooked and served just right on my table..when d moment i was watching drama while eating..all those fish and chicken had become boneless and was placed on top of d rice..ya..sometimes i use to ignore a lot of things..and some of the things may be so meaningful by itself..i never get myself to appreciate it and that was my fault..

Learn to appreciate each tiny satisfaction in life would probably become some kinda knowledge in life..looks like just s basic concept in life but sadly most of d time..we failed..Maybe..things just don't get right when we ourselves refuse it to become a right one..does this make sense?it could be..i totally don't enjoy my lifestyle over here..and this could because of i refused to accept it from d very beginning..

Life seems to become even harder each day i proceed..I desire for a better life in future and that's why I pay for it..there's always hope in life..i guess so..and if there is..''can i have my every tomorrow to be as beautiful as the smile in my heart..?''

Somewhere for me to lean on...??

2009-10-27T06:00:00.000-07:00

Finally I realized..there's moment when we feel so bad until we find no way out except letting tears dry out..and on that moment..I don't need any reason..and with whatever reason also..on that point of time..crying would probably be d best solution to letting go of my pain..we use to have so many reasons to prove ourselves we are living happily but normally we find no reason why we are unhappy...finally getting tired of everything..i really got to admit this huh??

Walking along the pathway..the so called 'interesting and challenging' lifestyle finally drive me crazy..watching ppl all around are busy to strive for their living goal..they are approaching their success with full effort but why am i standing so far away and i even couldn't find a place to accommodate me...yup..i should not surrender for every reason..i should work harder and even harder..braver and even braver..!!!i promised myself would never let my tears dropping down again..crying would eventually make me weaker and pessimistic. I know..but where should I find my strength from??

~Life meant for...?~

2009-10-14T07:52:00.000-07:00

hArlo..finally coming back for blogging again..hm..normally i don't really have mood or intention to blog when i am happy with everything around unless there is special moment which i really wish to share..however when things go another way round..i can't find a better place for me to tell everything except blogging..reason why..firstly..everyone whom you trusted a lot would not be always available to lend you their ears..secondly..would you actually trust someone so easily..?even for the case of close friends..you might not know how to speak out sometimes..especially when everything happened to you seemed so unfair that you couldn't find excuse to console yourself anymore..life turns to be so meaningless at that of time!!!have you guys actually experienced this b4??..and ya..i did..

when the moment you try to do ur best..try so hard to survive from the world of gossip and scandal..let's find urself one second and think..do all of these worth you to sacrifice??life should not be so tiring and miserable..rite??sometimes i was thinking..'what do i actually lived for?'..for myself?for my loved one?or for somebody who need me?..and most of d time..we don even get d chance to choose..is life meant to compromise?endure v every sorrow in life without having second word?is life meant to a lie?how frequently do we actually tell the truth from our heart??even to those who are so close to us..and we found out that..most of the truth sound bad..we prefer to lie because it looks good in some way??this could make sense i thought..

Life does not goes in such way you want it to be..we have no power to control but to live on..'Don't aim too much to design ur life with what you think of..but change the bad part of life to a better one'..is that so??..when everything went upside down in ur life..there's no other way out except for that..rite??i guess what we can do is always stay optimistic..never surrender to failure in life..but to be braver and braver each time you fail and stand up for second chance~~

~Happy Birthday to My Beloved Father~

2009-10-09T06:30:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday to my dear daddy..what can i say here..i feel really sry for not going back to celebrate v him and stay by his side for his remarkable moment..so sorry daddy~~

To talk about my dad..he is someone who himself never cares about'' when is his bday''..or even ''who will remember for him''..he never celebrates bday until the very first time when i insisted to had a bday party for him..yup..tis is my father..a man who is really cool and 'low-key'..i never know whether he really don't care..or he just trying to hide all these from us..but then i strongly believe he would be happy if we did something for him to show how mush we do love him~~

Daddy..u r d one i really admire at..u r d one i would always respect to..and u r d one whom i keep everything of him in my heart~~i do love u very much daddy..u take really good care of everything about me since i was born and maybe u not even notice this..i would never gonna forget how u care me and do everything to protect me..never punish me although i did break ur heart for so many times..not going to forget how nervous u r when i actually started a relationship v a guy whom u hv totally no idea with..thank you so much for everything dear daddy..^^

Once again..happy bday and may everything of you being blessed~~we love you daddy!!!

~a new beginning of semester~

2009-10-03T07:32:00.000-07:00

I will be even brave..i promise~~

my 3 little brothers

v my mom

v bf at genting

cameron highland

Finally coming bc from hometown..goin to hv a new beginning of college life~~i'm goin to start my 2nd sem of adv diploma very very soon..was a little bit resistent..most probably is because i still DROWN in my previous life~~seriously i hv to admit that i miss penang's lifestyle a lot..and this actually cause myself hardly tolerate v kl's life..anyhow..it has been one semester over..i guess i should adapt v everything here even better..we should have learnt and grow from things happened around though..although memories in pg is still so fresh in my mind..keep playing just like a recorder at d same time keep reminds me about loads of thing~~

Went for 4-day-trip v family and my bf too..i am very grateful to spend more time v everyone in my family as i hardly find time to accompany them since i came here..although d places we visited were not really interesting for me..but still..it is enough for me when my dad smiled to us signified his happiness..i always know he wish to spend every single moment v us~~i love u..as for my mom..thx a lot for being so caring..i know u are tired running d business and most of the time u are the one handling those disturbance..so sry i always fail to help up..thx mom~~

Today is supposed to be our chinese 'moon cake festival'..and i sitting in front of my lap top..blogging and at d same moment..miss my family a lot~~may everyone of you be loved..For everyone of you out there..may all of u have a beautiful tomorrow and of course enjoy tonight~~thx for reading..nitez^^

~a note for 18/09/09~

2009-09-17T09:58:00.000-07:00

Yippi!!!was a little bit getting too excited when those exam which tend to torture me for several sleepess night..finally i got myself to say goodbye to them..and pls..never come back!!!although not really did well i know..but is unwise if i were to worry a lot and SPOILT MY MOOD for celebration rite?...hehe..(i use to cover my mistake with a lot of excuses..sshhh)

I v all my classmates enjoyed the day at Sho Gun after end our exam for buffet dinner..I'm thankful that we could actually spend some time together before we are going to seperate ourselves to different group then..this is d sad part for us since we are getting closer v each other..i really appreciate the friendliness and sincere at d moment when i was so unappreciated v everything in kl~~a big thx to all of you..take care and may there are times for us to meet up again..

Also..we have a movie together-G-Force..a lovely movie which bring us a lot of laughters..i'm so happy that i actually grab a chance to watch this..to enable me to forget about those pressure and worries which the exam had brought to me these few days..i'm sure all of you may want to watch this..i bet u v this^^

And..not forget to say ''happy 1st-year anniversary'' sweetheart..although we don't get much time to have memorable celebration..but still i appreciate everything that u have actually given me..although we always quarrel for nothing..although i may be a lil barbaric..i hope for your understanding and be considerate towards my foolishness~~we hold promises to each other..d determinance of our heart towards love has walk us here..and i'm sure we have much more to proceed..no clue or shortcut to improve nor remain our love story but what we can do is only to love each other even more everyday..I love u^^

Have a goodnight sleep everyone...may our tomorrow will always a great day~~

~I loveee mask!!!~

2009-09-14T02:30:00.000-07:00

~this peel-off pack is quite effective but it will cause some pain..it cost only 2.9 per packet..cant believe it is a lot more effective then d nose pack i bought fr 'd face shop'~

~d peel-off pack is black in clour and we hv to apply thoroughly to d face..will have a bit reluctant to accept own apperance after complete applying^^~

Hi~~finally coming back here to *crap* again..not blogging regularly because i'm still facing exam..and this coming last paper is going to drag me to hell!!!tend to hate 'accounting' and i coudn't find out why..because i'm totally not sensitive about figure?or i just simply hate those complex + 'meaningless' mathematical calculation?..no idea..anyhow..stil hoping that i manage to go through it..definitely don't want to sit for it again!!!

hm..i hv nth special to blog abot..so i guess i would just talk about my recent habit^^-- MASK~~since i'm preparing exam..i find a lot 'silly' thing to do..which is totally unrelated to my exam..sigh~~i tried out variety of mask these days..they become my favorite because i'm so in love v the cooling effect when d time i took them out from d fridge and straight away applied it to my face..they got different effect to the skin according to what is the ingredient inside..and i'm so surprised that they even have ' coffee mask,red wine,black pearl,bird nest,apple mask' in the varieties~~what a creative 'invention'~~also..they actually do not cost us much..this make me doubt about the quality and d effectiveness actually..but then so far so good and you'll find out there is a gap between d price of d mask exported from Taiwan and other brands of mask..Taiwan's tend to b cheaper~~

Guess i shall turn on my study mode again..although i'm so resistant to do so^^by d way..wishing u guys out there all the best~~enjoy ur day^^bye!

I do cherish you~~

2009-09-07T01:03:00.000-07:00

~if nothing last forever..can you be my nothing~

Valentine~~

If there were no words

No way to speak

I would still hear you

If there were no tears

No way to feel inside

I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart until the end of time

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

All of my life

I have been waiting for

All you give to me

You've opened my eyes

And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before

But in my dreams I couldn't love you more

I will give you my heart

Until the end of time

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart until the end of time

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

~exam life~

2009-09-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

Smile when i fail~Smile whenever i try~Smile as i proceed

Started my 'exam life' today..finished up one subj..stil 3 more to go..i have to say that today's paper was not a good beginning though..although i really wished it would be..to at least increse my level of confidence towards other coming papers..so..i had ruined it finally..gosh~~

Know what..i used to find so many excuses during d time i prepared for exam..for eg:i will tidy up a lot of thing or cook a lot to waste my time..with d excuse of ''d processor of my brain is out of service temporarily''..can't memorize anymore..can't stand it anymore..sometimes i was thinking..if i were to live in a world without exam..what a relief..frankly..i love reading..i love learning..but is only under the situation that there is no exam..never!!!yup..is contradict actually..*punch my head*

anyway..hoping d best for my following papers..and so do my friends ya~~

Coming back from UNCONCIOUSNESS~~

2009-09-01T07:32:00.000-07:00

Just came bc from hometown..and yups..here ends my 3 days visit on that~~do miss each of my family member..food which always grab my appetite and..so so on..but yet..i hv to come bc to my 'reality' right now..'sob'..

oh ya..b4 i forgot..there was one issue that i wish to share here-->for your information..i took bus to travel bc my hometown usually..and mostly..i rely on d bus service provided by 'transnational'..for me..they are quite speedy and they are always ON TIME..this is d first and foremost reason why i use to rely on their service..but what was happening when d very last time i took thier bus was..i was very very disappointed with the attitude of the bus driver!!!oh sry i said it wrongly..it should be a lot of us in the bus were totally not satisfied v him!!!what happen was he refused to drop us by the place which we had specified and the main point is-->the place which we mentioned wouldn't cause him any unconveniency and for your information..everyone of d bus driver used to drop us by over there since i relied on this bus service..i just can't understand..why he refused to do us a favour while he is not suffering any losses..we just need him to actually open d door for us..yup!!that't it..but he refused!!!so..d consequences was..he dropped us by far away from d destination which we asked for..and then..we hv to wait for busses or caps to switch our destination..this actually took me another 1-2 hour..i just can't imagine..what was running in his mind..GOD knows~~Anyway..forget it..i wish we will never meet if i were to continue rely on this co's bus service..hopefully he is aware of our disappointment and d best thing would be 'they will improve in quality and take customers' opinions for consideration'..

Going to face a 'bunch' of exam soon..hopefully i will stop slacking around and start to have my concious mind back..i should have aware of the seriousness of d consequences if i'm nt well-prepared..~~

Finally..wishing all of my friends who curretly work hard for their papers..all the best and gambate!!we can always go through it...^^

~Thoughts on Horoscope & some Ramblings~

2009-08-27T00:30:00.000-07:00

Lately..i was hearing from ppl around talking about 'horoscope'..i had a blind faith in this kind of thing such long time ago..can u believe that..i was so superstitious over this miraculous stuff..curiosity was spread over my mind..i used to collect all the related information and i actually did some research on that..horoscope actually defines to--->a prediction of someone's future based on the relative positions of the planets..and it is also something got to do with our birthday which means the day we borned showed our horoscope categories..somehow..does horoscope really makes sense?if u were to believe in it..i would assume it makes sense..do u all notice that many couples believe in horoscope and they actually try to figure out their love destiny with the 'sign' given by horoscope..with this..they would be able to predict whether their partner will be the right one..hm..i don't think this would be an accurate test..as there is nothing obvious to prove us that but at times..we tend to influnce by the power of it..unbelievable though~~to believe or not is always up to us..why not take it as a fun lesson but don't make a fetish of it^^

Watched 'UP-3D' yesterday..it was rather a touching movie for me..the old man in d story inspired me a lot..i am wondering if i were the old man..how am i going to continue my life with just MYSELF..when you are so used to everthing in your life..what will happen if one day you are going to lose them..i'm pretty sure i would not be as stronger as the man in d story..to live alone by himself..and even tried to bring about his wife's dreams and hopes..can u imagine d courage inside that..NO..I CAN'T~~Our lives itself is a great adventure to be accomplished by us..we go through happiness and sorrows..in between..we learn and we grow..'You would never appreciate happiness if you never know about sorrows''..and such is life~~

If we were to take life as an adventure..then prepare for it and encounter every hardship in it..we are not going to run or hide..we are brave enough and full of courage..dreams do come true only if you were to believe in it..may all of us cherish every single moment of our lives~~take care~~

~a little bit of depression~

2009-08-25T05:12:00.000-07:00

~d lovable water container~

~d two books which i bought~

I never get to understand why couples use to find so many reasons to fight on..and i will never understand..why the situation always leads to a more serious level..sometimes..even end up with 'cold war'..couples actually know..they love each others..they care about the relationship which they brough up together..and this is the matter..normally boys hate troubles..and if they were to feel that you are actually trying to bring his attention to something which they actually hate to think and react on..know what..they will immediately escape from it..and complaining that you are irritating + not considerate enough to be like a girl..and what usually a girl will react on this is always imaginable..'omg!!you don't love me anymore,do you?''this is our problem,what is that you are trying to escape from?''don't you care about me?''you noe i love u so much!!'..bla bla bla..in d process..they never realise they are actually making the boy more irritated and annoyed..i guess that's the mistake which i used to make also..without realising that myself is actually producing some troubles for him and for myself too~~

But i was thinking that if he can understand me better...probably this would not happen..i will definitely wouldn't end up keep quiet and act like such a way which he is so unhappy of..that's why..couples need a lot of communication..and of course..UNDERSTANDING..to make the relationship works and stay forever..i'm sure it is not an easy task..and it is not just about the matter of falling in love with each other..'To love and to be loved is always simple and easy,somahow to hold and stay forever is always a real big knowledge which both have to learn on''

Today i was hanging around at the BOOK FEST..trying to get myself some fiction and novels..finally bought 2 books which are currently sold on discounted price..feel like buying more but d time was so limited and i was getting tired too..hopefully i got the chance to visit again~~oh ya.. LOVE my cute small tumbler which i bought..*hekhek*

of course..wishing you guys out there will always have a nice day^^

~Green Tea Latte-->trend of coffee lifestyle~

2009-08-24T04:24:00.000-07:00

Don really remember when did i started to fall in love v 'green tea latte'..i guess it was probably d 1st time i tried on it..for your information..the STARBUCKS's tea latte is built just like a regular latte with freshly steamed milk. They are flavored with matcha..which is powdered green tea..and a splash of melon-flavored syrup..i used to order this once in a while when i visit STARBUCKS..i guess i will never get bored of it as it is helpful to bring me some peace..not crapping seriously..i prefer a hot green tea latte..slight sweetness..sitting at d corner side of STARBUCKS..enjoying it while watching others..no worries no nothing in betwwen..i find my own peace..i steal some time from my tiring life just to relax..as if i'm tempororily isolated from those hectic lifestyle..probably it is one type of 'anaethesia' applied to my mind..*crap again*

Anyway..sharing d recipe v all of you if anyone is interested~

Green Tea Latte Recipe – One

1/4 to 1/2 teaspoon green tea powder (Matcha)
6 ounces warm milk
Honey or brown sugar to taste

Mix two ounces of warm milk with the green tea powder, mixing just enough to create a thick paste. Place the paste in the cup, adding the honey or brown sugar, along with remaining milk. Mix well and enjoy!

Green Tea Latte Recipe – Two

1/2 to 1 teaspoon green tea powder
2 ounces warm water
4 ounces warm milk
3 teaspoons sugar or honey
1/2 to 1 cup ice cubes

Mix the green tea powder with the 2 ounces of warm water, mixing well to dissolve. Transfer this mixture to a blender. Add remaining ingredients and blend until smooth.

~~and of course..have anice day yay!^^

2009-08-20T05:41:00.000-07:00

but then..we were finishing them^^

there was 'a lot' of thing!!!~~

salad chicken which did nt really meet our expectation..

d oriental steamboot~~

forgotten d name..but it was nice!!~~

smilling!!!~~*winks*

d dishes we prepared~~

~d green tea cheese cake~

~a remarkable moment for us~

2009-08-19T01:24:00.000-07:00

This entry is actually to blog about my bf's b'day..hehe..shouldn't be tat wordily to blog on this..but forgive me..i have a lot to tell on!!!*winks*..hahaha..d 1st celebration was held at our condo..as one of our house mate's birthday is so coincidentally exactly d same day v him..every dishes was prepared originally by our very-own-hands..yup..although the dishes may not be as authentic as usual restaurants served..but we did enjoy d progress of each dishes to be 'well-cooked'' by us..eventually..we had a simple yet warm dinner together..oh yea..i guess we were making such good decision to buy d 'green tea cheese cake'..we're loving it!!!we manage to finish all the food at d end of d day..yea..wasting is always an unwise practice though..so..everyone of us end up so full~~anyhow..it was memorable^^

For d 2nd celebration..we went for 'STEPHEN'S HAINANESE COFFEE SHOP'..i used to think that it would be such a 'formidable' budget if we were to spend our night over there..somehow..unexpectedly..d price charged for their special menu was affordable + there was no any other service charge nor tax！！！though d waitress were too busy to serve us but nowadays find it hard to enter a restaurant which exclude any service charge though..^^d conclusion was--->we were both satisfied!!!~~

~We are on the way~

2009-08-19T00:12:00.000-07:00

Attended yest's FA lecture..truthfully..do not like tis subj well..but what i hav to say is..kinda contradict..d lecturer for tis course is nice enough..since d 1st time he commenced d lecture..al of us were assumed to know his teaching style well..not to say strict..but dedicated..we were surprised by him in yest's lecture..d story went tis way..several students were late for d class..yup..supposedly we should be punctual to attend but how many students actually care about this so called 'minor rule' in d college?sad to say..i'm also one of the 'people' who use to commit such mistake too..we were al carried away by our own attitude..despite of what is the things that we have to follow..i guess he was getting fed up..he asked al those who were late to sit at the very front role..with a very stern look and serious voice..

He is totally upset with our attitude..like what he had said..''what kind of attitude you youngster used to have today?''..''why youngster today never responsible for their action and words?''..''why youngster today never realized on the seriousness of the matter?They just take it granted..''a lot of ''WHY'' weighing my mind..what he said was right..although it sounded bad..

He is on his way to make us learn and go through this tough subj..yet we disappoint him..guess he lose hope on us..anyhow..i do believe we will make the situation better..what we need are just a little bit more strength,courage and knowledge..we are on the way towards it~~

My recent hair-cut~~

2009-08-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Since my last time rebounding..ridiculously i found that there was around one year which i never do/cut my hair..even i myself hardly believe on that..according to my previous hair stylist..i was advised not to cut/do my hair within one year so to maintain d straightness and good condition of my hair..i did practice her advice..and yea..i managed to keep my hair straight and smooth for such a period..Until yesterday..i decided to go for a haircut since i've been quite tired v my 'scattered' hairstyle..first of all..i made myself quite clear that i wish to maintain d length of my hair..what i wanted was just to change my hairstyle to a more 'fluffy' one..so that it wont look so sticky n so few..hopefully it will become neat and nice..anyhow..d hairstylist recommended me to cut a little bit of my hair so to make it neater..well..what he meant on 'a little bit' was such a big different with mine..oh gosh!!!I was totally regret on everything at that point of time..i guess he noticed bout d change of my face expression..keep telling me that how he is going to make my hair look more nice and neat..u noe wat..he was quite irritated when i was a little bit showing refuse to give reaction towards his ques..okay..i noe this isn't good for me to do so..but he neither..finally all was over..luckily it did not cost me a lot..but i was reluctant whether to visit again to collect all six 'stickers'to redeem one time free treatment..was getting more acceptable over my hair dy..since i stand in front of d mirror for so many times..sigh''..yea..it does become neat compare to last time..not too bad i guess..should not be that stingy..haha~~

~a meet up v Shuang~

2009-08-14T09:35:00.000-07:00

Eventually we had a chance to meet up..we did plan and think of the meet up..but we juz fail to make it for sometimes as we fail to match our schedule..but..finally..we went dinner juz nw at my favorite 'Steven Corner'..hehe~~

And yea..do u noe tat..it was such a big challege for me to reach for our 'sudden-decided' destination..can't figure out why the weather recently may be that unexpected!!!omg!!!half way walking along the college roadside..all was coming in the sudden..strong wind continued by heavy rain..i realize there was no time for me to react..bf 'grabbed' me from behind..we ran towards d bus..guess it would end..but d non-stop heavy rain proved us wrong when we found tat we had to walk for a distance some more to reach..my shoes even get spoilt by that..*speechless*

But still very happy to meet up Shuang..all those misfortune did nt spoilt my mood on meeting up old friend..we keep chatting until i felt so outdated with all those news which Shuang actually tried to update with me..guess i have to always keep an eye on the latest news of u guys le..*blink*Oh yea..thanks a lot for treating me such a nice dinner..don grab my chance to pay next time k..hehe..do take care on everything ya..

Looking forward for every of my tomorrow..guess it will be always beautiful if i were to appreciate on eveything of it...nitez~~

I do treasure you~~

2009-08-13T09:37:00.000-07:00

Just got to know that one of my former schoolmate had broken up v her bf recently..feel quite miserable towards it..since when a question keep weighing my mind-what's love?..a simple yet troblesome word i would say..look how this 'four-alphabeth-simple' word keep torturing people..ppl use to appreciate so much when their love story stil sweet..hopefully it would be long lasting..having lot of confusion..thinking of the reason why d party decided to leave could be that 'resolute'..d relationship which both parties had brought up for such a period..they did work hard towards it..how come end up with heart broken scene..if they were given a choice to foresee such ending..would they stil chose to start and work on that..i am wondering..

I use to mumble at him about this kind of stuff..seems like i am juz keep him update..but who knows..i am hoping for some kinda promise..confirmation on our relationship i guess..yea..he would always reply and react with the same 'sentence' and expression..''they have nothing to do with us,this will never happen on us,i'm going to promise u an eternity,all you have to do is to believe in me''..yea..i noe he get irritated when i use to be so doubth about future and fate..he get annoyed when i seems so uncertain and unsure..we should have 100% confident towards ourselves..i noe wat he meant on..so sry..i never mean to hurt..i get dazed whenever i heard about those misfortune from acquaintances..yea..i should stop all those stupid thoughts i guess..

Again..'L.O.V.E' may drive ppl crazy..but ridiculously..everyone of us pamper it so much and we find that it is always at our own will..when LOVE exist..they use to cherish every single moment v each other..somehow..when LOVE gone..they don even manage to be friends..but who care all these..'WE LOVED AT THIS MOMENT'..this is suffcient for us to treasure our love and this is probably the only thing we should care about..people who get lost in love never try to blame or regret to anything..should be irregular if i were to worry a lot..to stay together forever is our PROMISE..we shall work hard on it..cuz i noe..we do believe in each other..very very much~~

Everytime we touch...

2009-08-13T06:02:00.000-07:00

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.

I still feel your touch in my dreams.

Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why

Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.

And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.

Need you by my side.

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.

And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so...

I can't let you go.

Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.

They wipe away tears that I cry.

The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.

You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.

And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.

Need you by my side.

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.

And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so...

I can't let you go.

Want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.

And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.

Need you by my side.

fell in love hopelessly with this song..probably because of its miraculously touching lyrics and melody~~having lotz of feelings and thoughts listening to this song..this may be a reason i get addicted to it~~

yoga yoga!!!~~

2009-08-10T07:06:00.000-07:00

huhuhu~~never believed tat i'm goin to persuade myself to practise yoga recently..influenced by my sweet roommate..hehe..yea..i had enrolled in yoga class 2 weeks ago..i'm goin to admit..we really having a lot of fun there..by pushing a lot of 'SWEAT' out fr our body..haha..tat's rite..tis help us relax a lot..by doin a lot of aerobic n streching..jumping non-stop..alot of tiring movement..up from d head to our legs..yoga do not miss out any part..end up having some of the critical parts of my body so painful..feel so envy towards those aunties..how can they do al those poses easily without feeling any pain..while me sitting right beside them..cant even stay each poses for more than few seconds..aiks..i should ashame of this..anyway..tis a nice experience of course..i manage to release a lot of stress and unneccessary worries through tis..tis is helpful..i guess~~

finally...~~

2009-08-10T04:01:00.000-07:00

quite a few days i fail to update my blog..our internet service was out of order..don really understand d reason given by d TELEKOM guys towars tis problem..wat i noe is..'THIS IS GOANNA FREAK ME OUT!!!' i was so boring these few days..trying to get smth to do..at least i can use up some time..but finally..everything being settled nw..wow..wat a relief..

today end my last presentation on COM..tis was actually a 'representation'..done badly last time..we plea to present again..aiks..who wants tis to happen..no choice..trying my best to memorize everything..well prepared included our attire..we juz nt dare to skip anything anymore..finally..it was over..hopefully i can free myself to at least relax my mind and of course hv a good slp..hekhek..

suddenly realise i was upgraded fr 'shopping lover' to 'shopaholic'..especially when i see all those 'sui sui' dress hang over d shoplots v d extremely reasonable price..find no excuse to stop myself fr buying them..tat's how i dig a big hole over my pocket usually..omg~~

hopefully i'm goin to enjoy myself fully tis weekend..cant wait for tat^^tk care everbody^^

2009-08-01T09:55:00.000-07:00

dinner at 'Feeling Cafe'~chesse+ham chicken chop

my favorite~cheese baked rice^^

ya,he won in d football match and we decided to have a 'better' dinner..haha...was so satisfying and of course~FULL~listening to d songs by d part time singer..we rest n talk..ya..we r tired of d life here..we hv to admit this..but at least sometimes we try to get ourselves relax..some kinda pamper ourselves..i thought..

especially love d song~最幸福的事 by d part time singer..yup..although there are lots to complain about eveything here..but tis moment..goin to blank out my mind..i just hv to tk a short break..and mayb to relax~~

STATION 1~LUNCH TIME~~

2009-08-01T09:38:00.000-07:00

was having my lunch in 'station 1'

d 'fish n chip' ordered by yi jie~~

my honey milk..weired@@

~aDD oIL~~

2009-07-30T21:09:00.000-07:00

The life is always too difficult when u try to hate n dislike someone..isn't it?do not really used to dislike ppl..but as a normal human being..i tin everyone of us should hv experienced such contradictory situation..i try to forgive when people did smth which is nt in my favour,and i tin so..not even in others' favours too..i noe..someday somehow..i mayb one of d character who being disliked by someone too..nobody is goin to promise tis..and we wont even aware of it..the answer for y is tis happening is always bacause no one is perfect..yea..no!..of course we r trying the best to b d best for others too..but who can give a perfect definition of tis simple word-'BEST'?i may become frustrated when i hv given my best..at least i tried to..somehow ppl may disappoint me..let's tin another way round,can i make sure myself not to disappoint ppl ever?ya..mayb i should ashame of tis too..when d moment i keep saying 'i've tried my best'..suddenly..i juz bacome not too sure about it..everyone's expectation is different..even towards d exactly same tin..and who is goin to promise all of these wouldn't change someday in the future?..mayb one day..one day..we will juz not going to care about all these..jia u jia u for myself n of course al of u too..life may b always beautiful..=)

my 1st time 'ordinary-meke-up'~~

2009-07-29T04:25:00.000-07:00

not used to make up actually..but it is so happen tat elianto set up a make up session which alls customers who bought up to some amount to hv tis benefit..feel so weired and abnormal..i guess..haha..is a nice experience..i thought..but it was tiring..:P

i do MISS penang~d sweetest city ever~~

2009-07-27T23:35:00.000-07:00

leaving pg for 3mths++ dy i thought..miss it badly..for everything..d food(getting excited talking bout food but at the same time feel so bad tat i have to leave it behind now onwards)..d beach..d sch..my hostel n lotz of my frenz..we had our enjoyable life over there..most of d time we were relaxing..goin shopping..movie..singing k...everything seems so wonderful for me..yea..lotz of assignment and test oso...but we juz manage to settle everything...end up goin for our happy hour...never gonna forget each single moment i had there..it was memorable..and meaningful..thx god i've been given a precious chance to expereince penang's life in my page of life..n thx u so much for my 'ji mui' in pg..it was so sweet being together v al of u..recall bc my time..i used to go for dinner in a quite nice restaurant named 'sri annanda'..it serves indian cuisine and yea...i like there very much..like d night view over there..d lights being on..some kinda of unique and romantic...i guess?haha...after dinner...we r goin for a walk at d beach..juz right opposite d restaurant..now i realise i had been living a super confortable life these 2 years at pg..still rmb i used to go for d night market every tues..goin to batu feringgi whenever we r free..having a midnight supper v a 'bundle' of friend..sit around a big table for teh tarik n start chatting until al of us forget bout time..where should i goin to find all of these back?our life was simple..yet enjoyable~~i will always miss pg...as i will always miz al of u..my dearest friends~~

I am so ADDICTED to BEAR!!!~~

2009-07-27T05:10:00.000-07:00

so so in love v BEAR...even seeing them put to sold in the shop...they wil drive me crazy..haha..i'm goin to tk them home...of course..it is when i m so affordable...haiz''...thx so much to HUA for the lovely 'chip n dale' n oso...thx so much to my dear~~for d 'shuai ge' n doggie...hehe~~

disappointed...

2009-07-27T04:52:00.000-07:00

having tis so called 'japan ice-cream' at midvalley..hm..a bit like waffle..but a cold waffle rather.haha..although special..but it cost us quite expensive..sigh''..actually plan for movie-ice age3 but den it really disappointed me when d receiption announced to us there was no more seats for us even we have actually made some reservation..feel so sad..actually hetting fed up..taking lrt n bus..came fr such far away...n u said:'sry,there's no more place'...omg!!!

not a good day for me instead..since we try hard to make some time for tis mv...disappointed''

miss al of u much~sweetie-ss~~

2009-07-27T03:20:00.000-07:00

travelling bc to d time..thx u so much much for bringing a lot of joice to me..as well as precious friendship~~really miss al of u..never gonna forget everything we had together...do tk care my 'ji mui'..T_T''

~pReCiOuS LoVe from my family~~

2009-07-27T02:54:00.000-07:00

mom calling today..telling me they are going to visit me on tis sun..getting excited..it seems i started become homesick..miss my family badly..is nt d first time for me leaving home for study..but tis time...it's a longer distance..it's a new challege..since leaving home..quite often i find myself a reason to call bc home..do nt really noe on wat to 'report' to them..but i was juz so used to them..until..i feel so abnormal without their existence..my bro was asking me when shall i go bc again..feel touched since he always act like a big boy tat do nt really care bout anything..but stil..he is aware and care bout his sis..ahah..mom and dad..do tk care always..don get hyper-stress especially..n for my 3 little bro..be good and tk care..i love u al...miz....~~

~I m tryin~

2009-07-26T09:32:00.000-07:00

I never noe i could be tat lonely...hopeless...apparently...to convert myself to be a more adaptive one...juz a slight change..i thought..but how could i noe.tis isn't easy...or mayb i shd say..tis is a process of transformation of myself...it was being forced rather than i did it voluntarily...wat a tragedy...can anyone tell me...where would it end?..if there is no end...can i go through it...?

别再伤害了好吗？

2007-08-31T09:39:00.000-07:00

一句‘我了解你的感受’到底隐藏着什么心机？
多希望，它是很纯真的一句话；
多希望，它没有任何虚假成分；
多希望，它是真的只是表达最真挚的关怀。
只是，我还可以这样相信着吗？
真的很想不必曲解这些话，
只要简单地想，不就好了吗？
我一直都这样，所以才变笨蛋，是吧？
也对，你们总教我别想得那么简单啊，
因为世界不是我想象的，因为这样我会吃亏。
只是，我习惯了这种方式，没有隐藏，只是简单的坦白。
于是我逐渐变得沉默，不知道在这些人，这种环境下，我应该怎么面对？
可是，在这一刹那，却告诉我，过得简单点，最重要的是快乐。
是啊，我失去原来的自己到底有多久了？
失去了傻气的笑容，失去了简单的心态，失去了快乐的自己。
我听着这些关怀的话，我只是感动，我真的心存感激。
只是，我却又记起了这些人曾经跟我说过的，
要我长大，别老是那样简单化，别老是那样不懂事。
那么，是要怎样呢？
在我无忧无虑欢笑的那一刻，告诉我这个世界多残酷，
仿佛对我判死刑般，天知道我要用多大的力量来接受；
然后，当我渐渐累得垮下去，失去了自己的真性，
却告诉我，其实可以很简单，要我再快乐一点。
我，一早说了，我一直都用自己觉得快乐的方式去看这个世界，
所以，我从没有觉得它有你们所说的恐怖。
我只希望简单，没有顾虑，
任何事情都好，只要保持自己觉得最好的状态，
那它就会是最好最棒的，不是吗？
真的好希望，没有人再会误会我心里所有的一切，
你们看到的真，没有被修饰过，不要怀疑好吗？
如果有一天，你真的看透了我的心里世界，
你会知道，你曾经对我的伤害是有多深，
是很深，深至深不可测。。。

听听我

2007-08-21T05:22:00.000-07:00

我，很轻易，就可以忘记前一秒的我曾经有多难过；
我，可以很傻气地因为小事哭得像发生了有多不好的大事；
我，可以哭完以后就放声大笑，全部不好的都离去；
我，会在很生气的时候，大声地骂着你有多混蛋；
我，也会在下一秒就很后悔很自责，自己为何这样骂你；
我，会很傻气，会很冲动，会很野蛮，会很霸道，会很不听话，会很不讲理；
只是，我不是故意的，不是因为永远长不大才这样。
偶尔，或者，是你把我逼急了，是你太不讲理，太不体谅了，才会把我给惹怒。
不能因为我可以很快不记得你有多坏，就可以在我面前为所欲为；
不能因为你从来都不介意，而认为我也永远不介意。
我还是个人，是个有血有肉的人，是个懂得感受的人。。。
我或者，偶尔，还是会有情绪，还是需要别人顾及我的感受，
是真的，是真的。。。

i hate lizard!!!

2007-08-16T07:01:00.000-07:00

i hate lizard!!!really really hate....dono y...juz cant accept its body structure...no fur...den d skin even very smooth ko...ga be tahan...ah!i nearly crazy when c it...today morning...omg...is d most unlucky morning 4 me le i tin...aiks...i m so sleepy every morning...although taking bath le...stil nt 100% awake ko de...i open d door of our hostel cupbord...wan take out my 'nestum' 4 breakfast....omg...juz at tat moment...one big lizard fall fr d cupbord...juz in front of me...n wat surprise me...is act...tis lizard even gt 'design' on its body...ah!...so disgusting...really want faint...den i shout...i juz cant cool down...i tin my housemate sure very angry bout tis...ahaha...so sory loo...hehe...den wat happen next...i fail 2 hv my breakfast loo...hw can i eat ar???c d lizard adi wan vomit al la...haiyo...warning 2 lizard!!!...next time pls don appear when i m going 2 hv my breakfast...omg...pls dont!!!...qiu qiu ni...

笨蛋的幸福

2007-07-30T07:54:00.000-07:00

我以为我足够坚强，我以为我足够力量，
或许，我总以为自己无论什么事都办得到，
我总以为，乐观的心态可以笑看一切人生的喜怒哀乐，还有酸甜苦辣，
但为什么我会居然没想到，一些冲着我来的突发事件，
足以令我惊慌失措，脑袋失去正常的思考功能，
只能傻傻站在原地愣着，再也反应不过来。
我或者真的像大家说的一样不够聪明，而且还真有点笨。
开心的时候，美好事情绕着自己转时，
我总不会去想到在这之后会有坏事物降临吗？
又或者在我尝透快乐的甜头时，悲伤的事会突然出现考验我吗？
我只想要简简单单，拥抱幸福快乐。
我的要求不高，不要求自己一定要高尚，
我只要简单，真的。
或者，连这样也是一种贪婪把？
因为，每个人来到这世界，或者都背负自己的责任。
我们没有权利推辞，而且还只能胜任。
我不相信会有个人在这艰难的人生道路上不曾跌倒受伤，
但我却相信每个人可以用坚强乐观的心态去完成上天给予的使命。
那是因为，只要相信，就有奇迹；只要相信，就会成功，就会拥有。
即使最后的结果或许不由我们控制，即使会失败，即使会跌得遍体鳞伤，
但至少我曾经相信过，我曾经用尽全力尝试过，那就没有遗憾，没有后悔。
所以，我也不信会没人懂得我的真心，会没人珍惜我的真。
我只是个简单的笨蛋，或者只有笨蛋，才会感受到幸福吧?
所以，所以，或者，我。。。还是宁愿当个笨蛋。。。

我幸福，因为我笨蛋。。。

2007-07-30T07:31:00.000-07:00

如果我告诉你，若要更快乐，那你必须更简单，那必须再笨蛋一些，
你愿意相信吗？你愿意尝试吗？
我从来不明白，为什么这个世界总爱那么复杂？
我从来不理解，为什么有些人要活得那么痛苦？
其实，很多事原来可以很简单，原来不一定要复杂。
我讨厌总在身边提醒我要记得长大的人，我知道，或者他们是真心真意为我好，
我不喜欢别人总跟我说，‘你不可以总那么简单化地看世界，这样会吃亏的。’
我也不愿意听见别人告诉我，‘别把世界上的人都当好人，不要跟别人保持太要好的关系，你或者还不懂别人的内心世界。’
我，真得快疯了。
听见这种好似关怀的话，我或许还真受不了。
因为，我从没有想过他们所想到的；我从来没有那么多顾忌。
正因为简单，很多问题对我来说不是问题；
正因为愚蠢，太多事情，我没有深层化的去想它。
但是，也正因为如此，我坦白，我没有秘密。
也因为这样，我更快乐，我更自然。
别逼我变成熟，别告诉我要懂得长大。
我，还是我，让我完全属于自己好吗？
或者我永远都太幼稚，永远都不懂思考，
但是，我就是那个最真实的我，所以我不再需要改变。。。

miss u...my dear daddy...

2007-07-26T04:58:00.000-07:00

dono y...suddenly...very miss my dad...i tin i start miss my home sweet home dy...aiks...lately...feel run out of energy...feel tired...feel lk want 2 die dy...b4 tis...whenever i face pro...i never feel lonely 2 solve it...i hv my lovely parents...i hv my lovely friends...bside me...2 support me...mayb al of us may nit a period 2 grow up...2 upgrade ourself...n 2 face difficulties by ourselves...but dono y...juz feel tat i m nt yet well-prepared...i stil nit sum times...i miss my dad...really miss him...i nit him by my side...he is alwez d one who help me...he is alwez d one who sacrifice 4 me...mayb bcuz of tis...i never grow up...i never learn 2 b mature...stil remember...wat my dad alwez try 2 tell me...'u should learn 2 grow up dy...y u never let me feel tat u r already adult?y u alwez let me worry bout u...'tin bc wat he say seriously...he is rite...dad...i miss u...n i luv u...i m here 2 tell u...i wil try my best 2 improve myself...so tat u don hv 2 worry me anymore...nobody can ever replace u in my heart...u r d only one...n u r d special one...al d best 4 u...my dear daddy...

anything wrong v stupid???

2007-07-26T04:15:00.000-07:00

today i go interview 4 my society's committee...i never feel scare about it...never feel nervous or stress...juz no feeling...or i should say sum kinda blur blur...nt bcuz i m confident enough...nt bcuz i m so proud...nt bcuz i m brave enough...juz dono wat kinda feel i should hv...i dono wat i 'm doing...wat i 'm saying...where m i going...i...m...tired...really tired...too many things cums 2 me...too many things nit 2 handle...i noe i should b tough...i noe i should nt say i m nt alrite...i m mature enough 2 solve my problem...i m nt a child...i try remind myself...but y...i m juz a simple gal...never tin much...juz showing my real personality...y telling me smth cruel...y force me 2 accept smth tat i don wan 2 accept...or mayb...u al r rite...i m juz a child...a innocent gal...noe nth...but wat's wrong v tis...juz bcuz of innocent...i never noe wat u al noe...juz bcuz i m stil a child...i never tin wat is wrong or rite...mayb...i m too'ikut perasaan'...tat's y...there is no bad ppl or bad thing in my world...i trust al of u...lk i trust myself...i luv al of u...lk i luv myself...from my deep heart's core...i hear myself saying...i juz wan 2 b simple...even stupid...i juz wan 2 b lk a child...even it seems crazy...but i juz trying 2 tell u al...this is a way 2 get happiness...i din bluff...trust me...

kexin...tired life...

2007-07-21T10:48:00.000-07:00

very tired lately...my CS meeting really make me exhausted...haiz...aiks...dono y sumtimes feel very confuse...lonely...dono who should i talk 2...or i should say...sumtimes ppl mayb dont agree v wat we tin...n our action oso...i m nt going 2 control everyone...i m nt going 2 tel everyone 2 follow wat kexin do n wat kexin say...4 kexin...everything is juz so simple...everything is juz so wateva...but wat should i say leh...sum ppl juz tin tat i should nt b so simple or mayb wat they say-innocent...ya...they r right...i m nt mature enough...i m juz a child...i m nt going 2 hide myself...about personality or feelings towards many things...i m juz a simple gal...mayb u can say stupid...but 4 me...everything wil b perfect n nt 'mahuan' if u tin positively n b a bit stupid...i m nt saying tat i refuse 2 grow up...or refuse 2 tin about pro...but if we r happy v wat we hv n wat we want...y should we change...i m juz practise out wat my heart tells me...i m juz showing d real kexin...i m kexin...n i m myself...no ppl can ever tell me 2 change fr kexin 2 another person...i juz want 2 b myself...d very real kexin... i hv my own opinion...i hv my own feelings...n i hv my right 2 mk decision 4 myself oso...i noe...sumtimes...they juz care 4 us...tat's y they wil say smth hurt or doing smth tat we even cant imagine...but juz let me tell u all...i luv u al...lk u al luv me...but mayb juz provide sum space 4 my own thoughts oso...k???don force me 2 grow up...it wil cum naturally...don try destroy kexin which u al hv nw...let me b simple...let me b stupid...let me b happy...let me b easy-going...let me b myself...as i say...i luv u al...n i luv myself too...thx u al ya...

♥~Kexin's~♥

Simplicity

放晴吧！~~

♥

Happy Birthday ♥Dad♥

Lamb Bananas are everywhere in UK =)))

♥The amazing Minack Theatre♥

想念~~

=.=

How can I know, if you don't say~

心...碎...

Life Keeps on Moving~

Can I take a break?

~Back from Internship-->Beginning of college life~

~Ramblings~

It's tiring Monday again...

If I could relax~~

I experiencing little sweetness from them~~

~A visit from my dear friend~

:(:(:(

~A brand new update~

Stealing time for me to rest here~~

~Get Back On Track~

Another depressed one~~

~My kampar~ipoh trip~

~I Learn to Appreciate Each Tiny Satisfaction in Life~

Somewhere for me to lean on...??

~Life meant for...?~

~Happy Birthday to My Beloved Father~

~a new beginning of semester~

~a note for 18/09/09~

~I loveee mask!!!~

I do cherish *you*~~

~exam life~

Coming back from UNCONCIOUSNESS~~

~Thoughts on Horoscope & some Ramblings~

~a little bit of depression~

~Green Tea Latte-->trend of coffee lifestyle~

~a remarkable moment for us~

~We are on the way~

My recent hair-cut~~

~a meet up v Shuang~

I do treasure you~~

Everytime we touch...

yoga yoga!!!~~

finally...~~

STATION 1~LUNCH TIME~~

~aDD oIL~~

my 1st time 'ordinary-meke-up'~~

i do MISS penang~d sweetest city ever~~

I am so ADDICTED to BEAR!!!~~

disappointed...

miss al of u much~sweetie-ss~~

~pReCiOuS LoVe from my family~~

~I m tryin~

别再伤害了好吗？

听听我

i hate lizard!!!

笨蛋的幸福

我幸福，因为我笨蛋。。。

miss u...my dear daddy...

anything wrong v stupid???

kexin...tired life...

I do cherish you~~